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Identifying smiles

2009-07-17T19:48:00.000-07:00

I have a kinda long list of smiles you can do. Practise in front of a mirror and you can find out the different expressions hidden in it. For good or for sacarsm. Everyone of you has to be equipped with this smiles or know about it so that you won't be a culprit of some insult. Well this pictures is like copyright from Tyra DUH. Cause its so action for me to put my own pictures. OK let's begin.

Angry smile: OK this is my top favourite smile , I'm still practising this smile. There's a meaning to it. Its like you have to pretend you like someone...But you really don't!! So you want to smile because you can't be like rude you know, you have to be mature and professional. So that's a raising your eyebrows with a squint like smiling with your eyes but its less open than smiling with your eyes. and you smile ( mouth ) has to be like one side up one side normal. A tilt is what I'm trying to say. And your lips is thinner like you add more tension to it.

The surprise smile: This is like when someone gave you a birthday present and you don't know about it but if you do, you tend to not be surprise and the people who gave it to you intended the gift to be a surprise so you can't spoil it. So you HAVE to raise both eyebrows ( a Must ). And combine it with the wide smile and wide eyes. ( that's the obvious )

Smiling without your eyes: OK this is the worst smile one could ever have you do not want to smile like this and you do not want people to smile like this at you. There is no sincerity in it. (OK try covering tyra's mouth with your fingers and see the eyes and pretend the mouth is not smiling... You see? its like a dead face right? RIGHT?) And moreover, if you don't see like the muscles around the eyes and the cheeks move, it straight away means that he or she is not smiling sincerely.

Smiling with your eyes: OK this smiles sells products like duh. The one thing you must do it to squint your eyes and oen it slightly. You have to imagine that you are smiling so strong but the mouth to bring it back to normal but keep that eyes squinting. The back muscles of your eyes has to be pulled back, ( use your eyebrows to pull it back cause its connested to it ).

Flirting smile: Ok this smile is like when you see someone you like. But nobody in singapore would do this but if its like a fun shot you can do it. You tilt your body to the object or the subject and tilt your head down cause it naturally makes your eyes sharp and kinda smiling. and do a smirk.

The Commercial smile: This is the smile that you want people to relate to. So you smile with your eyes and your mouth but not too much teeth cause it tends to get fake.

Catalog smile: This is like the high fashion smile you see in vogue magazine.

Why being gay is the most important part about themselves?

2009-07-16T01:59:00.000-07:00

This is kinda a serious post.

Basically I think that this comes from us having to fight for rights for the past 30 years. So the older generation who have been fighting for gay rights since the 70s 60s even have made them being gay such a big part of themselves to be able to fight for their rights. But now that these rights are starting to exist and become realised, they do not know what to do with themselves all that's known is "gay" and they simply keep on making "being gay" the most important part of themselves because they do not know what else to do. In terms of the younger generation, gays that have been coming out in the last let's say ten years, leading up to now, its such a big thing to come out. So, all of the friends know, blah blah blah, all these different groups suddenly know and they (gays) have an identity crisis. And you want to discover who you are and this new big gay-thing has just popped out in your life or has developed into something greater in your life and so you want to express that. After doing that for a long time, they suddenly realise " oh that's not all there is to me............... but what else is there?". SO they just keep on thinking that gay is the most important thing about themselves. Also since the prop 8 is like arising we have to like change our mindset on gay rights. Marches and all that jazz no longer can bring rights to us. Wr have to blend in with the society. We have to be normal people. Not just gays in a gay ghetto because that's all that the society sees in a bad way like AIDS or drug. They don't see gays that have integrated with the societies like doctors, engineers or STUDENTS.

DO's and Don'ts when you're around a gay guy

You DO have to watch what you are saying to us cause we are emotionally unstable. We have a strong mouth but we have a thin skin.
DO treat us as normal people but keep in mind that we are gay.
DON'T talk/ask anything about gender like whether we think this is hotter or not. Like whether one thinks that this guy is hot or not.
DON'T call us gays in public. We are fine with being gay, but the word do bring us fear especially those who just came out.
DON'T believe our expression. We can hide meanings in our expressions. A smile may not always be a smile. Different smile signifies different things ( I'll teach you about the different smiles on later posts)

10 reasons "Why gays are important?"

2009-07-15T03:03:00.000-07:00

Hey comrades,

Today on "WHY GAYS.....", I'm going to talk to you about why gays are important you the world. Well......

Firstly: By legalizing gay marriages, we can save the economy. The average American wedding costs like around $20,000. The number of gay couples living together without the benefit of marriage is estimated at 3 million. Using those numbers, same-sex marriages could pump an estimated additional $60 billion in revenue into our deteriorating economy. Oh and that doesn't even include money from the pre-wedding parties, honeymoons, or wedding registries.

Secondly: we can slow down birth rates. Well neither one of us can reproduce right? Duh!!!

Thirdly: We are the only species in males that are allowed to say " fabulous!!!" and " honey" to everyone... even animals. Ane we can call girls " girlfriend" even if they're not your girlfriend.

Fourthly: We have good expression. We can smile to let someone know we can't stand them.

Fifthly: We can teach you people how to be FIERCE!!!

Sixth: We can understand both sides of the gender. ( So you can tell me anything people )

seventh: We are the only group of people not touched by war. So we are precious, "pure".

Eighth: We make life for girls more colourful and fun. As we always have a smile on our faces.

Ninth: Girls can easiliy ask whether their ass is too big or what they are wearing is disgusting or not.

Tenth: We have the greatest gossips you need...From both sexes...

OK you might disagree to this...but this is my blog and i can say what i want to say...bye

Girls girls girls

2009-07-14T04:25:00.000-07:00

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Hey comrades,

I am like a complementary blog of aisyah's ( sec school bestie ). Hers was all about boys, but now I'm doing the opposite. Girls of course! Duh! The complexity of women that a gay boy encounter is something you need to find out. Hey, how many times would you face a gay boy who became your friend? But be warned, this post might get very- very- bitter- one- sided- drama- king's view about the species we all know as women.

Maybe because I have nothing to do but literature homework, but I do feel you guys need to know what gay people think of you people ( females ). You ask any guy about girls, they would not know much, but ask us gays, " My gays, what do YOU think about girls? " We would probably know more as we hang out with them. We hear their complains and their sorrowness. We feed of these pain and understand such sub-species. Anyways, our answers would be that as much as we hate the constant nagging and self-centered matters ( Sorry bitches but it's true ), we still love the chats and the talking. Ask a gay to hang out with a group of guys? We'd hardly blend it. Its all too quiet and boring. ( Trust me, I walked with this guy back to school and we did not talk at all. Very strange environment ). Like they say, " Every girl has a gay friend", I might have fulfilled their wishes like Aisyah's.

I do enjoy my malay possies during secondary school. And girls are not all bad. Just too many colours to handle. You know what I mean. Too many personalities to relate to them and create that perfect conversation.

The one thing that ticks me off about girls is that they, this is from the heart, nothing!!!

maybe because i'm gay I said that, Oh ya, it does make a difference. Well, so that's final, gays can't live without their girl-mate ( and that's all y'all girlfriends, Hola!!! )

Emo tuesday

2009-07-14T01:06:00.000-07:00

Hey comrades, although non-existence,

I think i went a bit over the celebratory mood yesterday because of my geography marks. Well my teacher anyhow guessed and it turned out i did not get the highest for my physical geog..Amelia (bestie) got it... oh well...I still got an A...But personally I'm someone who works hard for position, you can hate me for this but i easily get jealous but since i already got an A I shouldn't ask for more..( learnt that lesson for sure)

Oh I failed my melayu. Saya tentu berasa sedih kerana saya fikir bahawa kertas ini lebih mudah untuk dibuat and walaupun saya gagal saya masih dapat 'S' (sub-pass). Saya selalu mendapat 'U' jadi sikap positif ini, saya harus ada.

Okie out from the malay into the english( that was a relief) . I'm HATING me new lit teacher a.k.a Cruella de vil. You guys know about the contact tracing right? she wants a mugshot of all of us...I was happy about it, strangely. Well what do you expect? I hadn't taken a picture for like 3

months!!!! you know how deteriorating it is for me? Better put foundation around my eyes...haha

Enough about that, I really am praying for the rest of my papers....hoping for more As...

Where are my gays?

2009-07-13T05:17:00.000-07:00

OH how i miss them so.....

OK my non-existant friends
Today is a great day for me firstly GP teacher had a fever ( WENT HOME DUH!!!) So we had 2 hours of free time. OF course we had to study... AND oh i forgot, I got an A for my geography block exams, and i topped the whole cohort...call be boastful but, I DID IT!!!...thank god...

Oh and we had a photoshoot class one and i did this pose on 3 chairs and like they were all "woah!!!" and i was like..."you ain't see noting yet"...well I'm gay so what i can do whatever i want...of speaking of gay I hate lydia ( my classmate ) i think she is homophobia...3 times she discriminated me of my gayness

1) When we first met during group work I said " oh my god!" and she jerked back on her chair and said " eww gay" that words hurt me so bad..i hated her from there.

2) During lit lessons we had to write a prose about anything that includes the techniques we learnt...then when i took it out she read it and she went " oh I thought you were going to write some gay story"...and i just laughed with the word "bitch" erupting off my head.

3) this one was recently when i got my hair cut short...i went into class she said " eh the gay haircut again" loudly...i was so pissed but i kept my cool...but i have to stop doing this..i should be proud to be gay and they should be regretting not to be one...urgh one more time from her i'm gonna confront her...

Long time no post!

2009-06-19T02:05:00.000-07:00

Might be the first member of my family whom I would open out to

So Hi my blogger people out there,

I know its been such a long time since I've blog although not many people really read my blog so I can really open out in my blog. I do have a journal the traditional diary(book) my pain is all there. I hope that one day many years from now people would have a chance to read about the young and confused adolescent.

Oh, if you guys don't know, me and nazri broke up. Not really the breaking up where we hate each other but we feel that our relationship is more of casual friends that a real gay relationship. so we decided to go on our separate ways.

So back to the main topic of this post, I am writing about the homosexuality law in Singapore. I've been spending a lot of time discovering more of myself and of course studying( you can never get this geek away from his books). Anyway, regarding to Singapore's gay community I feel that although people are "OK" with it, we can still feel the repulsion of them. Meaning that there is no acceptance but there is tolerance. You see, we can actually sense that, or lack thereof. The reason for this is that sometimes Singapore's administration manages to give an impression of somewhat homophobic. Its like what PM Lee Hsien loong said at like around 2005, after his short speech at a luncheon organised by the Foreign Correspondents Association, he said that he is aware that homosexuality is genetic and it is not a choice. I was fully on his page right there until... when he said that he does not support Gay Pride like those in San Fransisco, the PFLAG and all that jazz. Although I find it true especially in S'pore. SO i shall not comment further on that part of the topic.

Another thing is that (EX i think) Prime Minister Goh Chok Tong's comments in the 7 July 2003 issue of Time (Asia) magazine about homosexuals that "...some people are born that way. We are born this way and they are born that way, but they are like you and me." He also stated that gays would now be allowed to serve in 'sensitive positions' in the Civil Service and that homosexual acts are still prohibited. Well truthfully I am blessed to be a Gay boy in Singapore cause I realise that there are other countries that have more animosity against the gay people. Maybe its because of the dreadful laws that the British left behind after singapore gain independence ( I did my research). It's about time Singapore grew up, I think, and realised that gay people are here to stay given the acceptance and not the tolerance. Just treat us with respect like we treat everybody else and the world will be a better place, I think.

2009-05-29T17:59:00.000-07:00

OK so yesterday was my GP and Mother tongue Paper. Luckily I prepared for the GP paper. Just hope I didn't misread the topic. After the paper, we went to the mosque and ferry didn't come with me, I do not know where he went. So after that is the malay paper. I did the question when they asked " pekerja-pekerja asing telah mendatangkan kebaikan kepada banyak pihak Singapura" I of course disagree....I was using the kamus for like 3 times every 2 minutes.

So after that badi kinda cried cause he wasn't able to do the paper well enough. well i find it hard to console him cause i also find the paper unmanageable. So after that me liiz, delia went to northpoint and i bought chocolate waffle from prima deli.(however you spell it).

So now is like a holiday!...for a while the first week of the holiday is like still the same, school till 4pm...urgh...and we have to present to the PW commitee...ppt and all....so ok bye...gotta do them all.

happy birthday abah

2009-05-28T03:16:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to you,

happy birthday to you,

happy birthday to abah,

happy birthday to you.

We will always pray for you abah.

I came back home and my brother told me that its my dad's birthday and that my sister went out to buy a cake to hold this birthday thingy...ahh so sad he's no longer with us. And like I said, its hard not to have a father cause you need that fatherly side beside you. After my dad passed away, things have been really different in the house. the athmosphere just wasn't the way it used to be. I think the loss of my did has made me came out of my closet, partially, cause it has made an impact in my life. the most interest thing is that after his death, we can't thing of any wrong or irritating doings of his at all...not even the slightest bit. Its all the happy and comedic things he did..... he's like the best dad one could ever have...I just wished I could spent just one more day with him like normal at home...nothing special.....jst having him would be a blessing. Well, its all Allah's doing...its fate...

Lit....literature

2009-05-25T05:19:00.001-07:00

We've all gone through those ruts in life when we can't get over something that has happened.
Whether it is breaking up with your boy/girlfriend or the auto-replay in your memory of that heated argument you had with your mom, sometimes it's hard to move forward. You want to speak out but you just think whether it's ok to do so. You do not want to regret your actions but you just feel like letting it all out. get it?

So are you dwelling on things from your past?

So anyway, I walked with Grace during PE. Not interested in doing PE...cause i totally flunked in Lit test...8/25 CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!?!?! i'm the lowest in the class....but luckily naz( furry) consoled me...ahh so sweet...so lucky to have him. Well I did Skipped ELDDS cause of GPP meeting and since grace did not go, its not worth going anymore, at that point of time lah.

OK I WILL CONTINUE WRITING>>>I NEED TO DO MY WORK FOR A WHILE>>>

Where are you nazri?

2009-05-23T20:12:00.000-07:00

It's nasty.
It's just not natural.
It's against God's word.

These were just a few of the sentiments expressed on dealing with prejudice and homosexuality. I'm not telling you why I'm writing this post but it has to be said. I do not agree with those sentiments I have no idea why it is even brought up and like tyra said, Gay is the new black. I don't like it when people change once they know I'm gay..its stupid and it shows their true colours. And I hate doing stuff that obviously does not depicts the image of ME, cause its so difficult. it is true when they say that its hard being someone you're not....*i salute that person who said that* and the fact that people want me to change thinking that its possible...well NEWSFLASH...its not...i tried but you can't just switch your gender preference..you just can't..OK forget that last italicised sentenceluckily not the WHOLE college know my secret, only the trusted few i told...my "Bimbo club"( personally named the group). 2 from my CTG, and that's all..see not many people know( I think) it seems that they know...WELL WHAT THE HECK . I'm not all perfect.. some people are different/special...it depends on how the people sees it that decides whether you're + or - .

Anyway, Kris won..my sis did not agree..in fact my whole family did not agree.. like where did he come from? well the first song he sang was in fact really nice...to be frank.

and since today is Sunday....I'm free until night, my group members gonna give me their gpp parts and i have to put it all together....urgh..so many things to do awaiting for me... OK lah...not many people view my blog...nothing much to say...so ciaos

America's next top model

2009-05-08T17:38:00.000-07:00

Top 3 In America's next top model season 12....which of these ladies do you think could win...

B)

C)

So yesterday friday, was an OK day... we did our skit...i forgot one of my lines and some of ot came out a bit fake...oh wells...but we pulled it off...You see we are really desperate to get this right cause our poem assignment was not good at all in fact I failed 8/25...cause the tutor said it was very general and the analysis is broad... And i am trying really hard...

anyways after school me and the girls went to Popular in search of Mother's Next top present...I have my eyes on this locker look-a-like-cabinet...it cost like $22...oh gosh...but we saw this lovely red mug...I want something that is long lasting...teddy bears is the land-in-the-store gift...not a good one...after that we walked around the toys side of popular and grace was like a child...she wants this and she wants that...she was like so happy to see the doll houses and all...haha so cute...

so now I'm at home trying to do a poem Question and trying to do my GPP...we need a more abstract topic...and I'm like...what the hell is abstract in the first place...so i came out with this...fragmentation of social stigma in USA....it sounds nice....so we just have to wait for my member's approval...wish me luck...oh and do pick on which girl should win...my pick is either A or B...not because they're black...its just that C has not been doing well and she always gave the same old look..."the wide eyes"....and now she's improving no doubt...but its kinda too late...

proof audition.

2009-05-06T07:57:00.000-07:00

So, I was forced to do an audition for proof for our literary festival. And its either Hal...this hot guy down here...or this old guy at the last picture.And NO...I won't be doing this kissing scene....just so you know

This is the old guy that I auditioned for cause before me was this tomboy girl who did Hal's role...and she was super duper good at it....so I switched my role so as to not embarrass myself so I switched my role as this dead father...seriously he's dead..a ghost

So today I woke up raining... I LOVE THE RAIN..... Love it...I walked in the rain even though i had an umbrella in my bad...I just had to embrace the rain before it ends.

Did temperature taking ...its twice everyday... waste time...swine flu...oops sorry guys H1N1...they renamed it cause the swine flu is discouraging people from eating pork...I know right...it came out on the radio...

So, after school drama...I was so drained out and I didn't want to take the role of the guy cause of my excess femininity ( yes I am aware of that you do not have to tell me )...so I was like insulted when they said that I am fitted to do the Hal's role...Like its so obvious I'm not that person...pfft.

but the results aren't out yet...there would be a re-audition for some...haha I think i''m one of them.

OK must do my lit homwowrk....bye...

2009-05-02T05:05:00.000-07:00

I love the way she shows her attitude...her name is bunifa latifah halifah shalifah jackson...haha very funny..love her..

OK, so i just came back from our GPP meeting at orchard..I went of one of my friend and we did not know where wheelock is...so i wanted to call aisyah and ask her where is it...but we were in public....and if they hear me shouting to aisyah" hey aisyah(well that's not how I would start the conversation)....where is wheelock?!!!!!)..it would be so embarrassing...so anyway then we met up with nadene...and we discussed..our GPP...it turns out that I am the meader...oh I hate it...so many things to do...i so do not want to be the leader...but anyways...grace did not come....i so wanted her to come.....I HATE JC....if only I have a B3 for my english...I could have enjoyed my life in Poly...singapore poly...or nanyang so I can go to school with nazri...like..I can't change it now...damn..

2009-04-30T16:37:00.000-07:00

So people, my new econs rep has like retired cause ms aminah didn't like him...and after PE, was econs tutorial and ms moganes chose me to be the econs rep...and i was like nu-uh...but..had to do it. the problem is that I have no $ to like pre-pay the notes and all before collecting the $ from them...(if they pay)...usually the reps would be in a loss..but I did my first task well..i think..first time is so tedious...so busy now...better go...loads of work to do

no more gym for me

2009-04-28T02:25:00.000-07:00

OK you guys...I am feeling so tired after gym..urgh..i know. well I'm now finishing my PI and then i'm gonna revise my geography so that I can retain my marks...so I came back home and I checked my mail and I received an email from the modelling industry...which I sent like 6 months away.

Hi Hafiiz

Could you send us 2 Photos of yourself, 4R preferred. one close-up shot and one full body shot.--

With Regards,

Joseph Oo

The HunterImpact Models Studio

315 Outram Road #04-

Boon Liat Building

Singapore 169074

Office : (65) 6536 9668

Fax : (65) 6536 1090

Email : joseph.impactmodels@gmail.com

Website : http://www.impactmodels.com/

so I'm like...now you tell me...I'm like suffering in JC..i need a break..

And after sleeping in Nazri's house like on Saturday...My mum thinks that naz is like my friend so its ok to have a sleep-over...and naz's parents know about me and naz... So they are fine with me and naz...And I feel so guilty taking a pic of him without knowing..haha...

so bye bye many things to do tah...

starting to miss all y'all

2009-04-24T17:40:00.000-07:00

This, my friends, have been with me since secondary one...AND AISYAH GAVE IT TO ME.....LOVE HER... if not I think i would still be using my astro boy wallet...haha ... well this wallet have a bit of torn pieces but we can stitch it up back.

OK you guys I'm missing my secondary school mates. The morning groupings at the parade square where our malay "possie" would gather before splitting up to our classes. The maths lessons with Mrs Phua, english with mrs tan and so on. Oh the malay class...that was fun.

anyway i'm so stressed now to finish up my PI. I have like 1251 words in my PI where the word limit is 500 words...how am I gonna delete so much. people say i should do it in table. well i did but my teacher said it still counts. So i'm doing about anporexic and my area B is domestic violence. I do think mine is unique rather than HIV/AIDs or WAR....so boring.

SO during malay class we were suppose to have this tuition with ms suriati...for all the weak in malay...so liiz was like.." i think she forget"...so we just went off..but i really wanted to go improve my malay. Nazri has no chance in helping me..haha

sunday got this CIP...i signed up for it. But now i don't want to go cause i'm so busy..I have a GP test on monday, economics test on tuesday and a geography test on wednesday...and what am i doing now you would ask? I'm blogging, watching america's next top model 12 and doing my PI. I have no life....no fun...(no offence nazri)..oklah bye y'all

love,

hafiiz

Work it!

2009-04-23T03:35:00.000-07:00

My bestie grace on the right...just love her and we have the same birthdays....can you believe it...coincidence....and I've got her in my PW group...YAYs Here we have Amelia...One of my Besties...Love her too....great to be with...but can't get her to be in my PW group...damn...oh there's on of my lit books its a play...haha very nice once you read in the middle

So hey fwens, I just recovered from my fever, 38.4 degree celsius and I still went to school. Basically for economics lecture, PW and malay(can you believe it? malay?) Ya so, I got back my PI draft, knew what I need to do and I need a lot of time coming up strategies. so I need help from you guys.

First thing was PE and I did not eat anything...and we had to sprint around the track once I got like 1 min 30sec...and I had leg cramps...mild one...then we had to do push-ups and THEN we had to sprint another one round...and at first i ran fast then my leg was like OUCH and I still got 1min 30sec..haha

And after that during our Econs lecture, ms aminah is always in a good mood during thursdays lectures cause after that she can go home...so the funny thing that happened just now was that she scolded a girl and called her felicia...then she replied in a sad pitiful voice " I'm not felicia"..and then Ms amunah laughed we all laughed too and she shouted with a smile " You are whatever I call you" that totally cracked me up...it just brought the best out of me.

NO lit lesson...went eating...and then chemistry...GOT A 25/30...oh was I contended...finally I redeemed myself in the past I got a 15/30..haha...so yeah...so now...first test...B..

2nd test.E -_-now A!!!!!

So American Idol time...the result have come in and Lil rounds and anoop is eliminated. I really wanted lil to have a chance to redeem herself...she never did ever since the first performance.

Next up is america's next top model season 12 episode....I have my eyes on Teyona...she looks just like Grace...Teyona is the one on the lower side...the one standing is just some famous singer.

Reading circle...

2009-04-20T08:52:00.000-07:00

OK so today I was really in a bad mood...did my chemistry test, really manageable..then after that after school I talked to grace and we share a pain that could have not been shared. So after that I had to like host or lead this reading circle, which was why I was so moody cause I was scared as I did not even read the book, but i did lots of research on it. So we played "catch the white tiger" its like "what time is it Mr.wolf" we were surprised that they actually had a lot of fun....and Fatimah was like the champion of that particular game...I saw her creeping up to Mr.Nair(white tiger) and she totally slapped his back.

So after that we had our discussion...It actually went well where we all shared our stuff....(not that stuff) and we had fun. until Mr.Nair came in and was like asking whether we all read the book.....which we didn't...so we had a little intermission and he was like saying that if we are that lazy one more time, we're gonna get kicked out of ELDDS...and i was scared...but I was quite OK with leaving the CCA cause the people there are like really uncomfortable to be with...except my reading commitee and my normal friends of course...

So anyway, Nazri was like really pissed with this ***** right there at the tag box...you see? like so what...but it's like really hurting cause i'm already having an identity crisis not forgetting my low self-esteem and these so called " lame poses" helped me be ok with who I am and there he/she goes with critisicing me about 'em...i'm telling you naz was like really mad...and you do not want to see him mad...you would I even let you see him...so anyway...my confidence/self-esteem level has dropped drastically....or should I say...I have to go back to square 1 and build it up more...

photoshop....LOVE IT

2009-04-18T05:36:00.000-07:00

OK you guys...i'm just loving the photoshop that was downloaded onto our laptop.....i just want you to see a few....i'm loving my eyes in the first one....i accentuated the iris in my pupil.

PULAU UBIN trip...

2009-04-11T04:31:00.000-07:00

OK THIS IS NOT THE PULAU UBIN.TRIP ...THIS WAS THE DAY BEFORE WHEN WE WENT TO VISIT MY DID'S CEMETARY...AND LOOK AT MY SHOULDER!!!!....CAN SEE BONES....ANOREXIC ME..HAHA

OK THIS WAS ON TOP OF THE TOWER....WE HAD TO GO UP 5 STOREYS...REALLY SHAKY...BUT WE TOOK A SHOT...AND BOY WAS THE SUN BRIGHT...HAHA

THIS WAS WHILE WE WERE WAITING...CAUSE MY MUM AND AUNT WANTED TO SIT ON THE ROCKS AND REST...SO MY SIS SNAPPED PICS.....THIS IS THE GHETTO POSE...STANDARD

SITTING ON THE ROCK...POSING.... THIS IS THE BRIDGE WHERE THERE WAS SUPPOSE TO BE A LOW TIDE...BUT STILL WE SAW FISHES...THAT IS UNCOMMON...OF THIS PIC IS LIKE ABOUT MY MUM WHO IS LIKE INFERIOR TO THE SUN...THERE YOU CAN SEE MY AUNT SO PARANOID...HAHA

THIS WAS BEFORE WE WENT TO OUR WALK...THE MAP...HAHA...I ADD THE TENSION...OR DID I NOT.HAHA

Hey people I juat came back from pulau ubin, I was unhappy of going cause I had lots of work to do. But it was actually fun, lots of pictures were taken(on rocks etc) First we went on the ferry...and we took picture...WE WERE SO TOURISTS...the way we took our pictures...and the amount we took. and so we walked...actually there was a van to go up there...but we all wanted to feel the natural atmosphere...after a minute, we all decided to go for the van...haha $20 to and fro...good price...LOADS of mosquitoes people...

So after that we went on this bridge...it was unlucky for us as its not the low tide...we have to like wait for 15 april...not gonna happen. i'm not gonna blabber about what happen and all that...very self indulgence...and i just wrote about how blogging is self indulgence for my essay..after that we went to the airport...bought myself a caramel coffee ice blended.... then when we were in the elevator...we saw a group of like policemen...pretty good looking by the way...and my aunt waved and smiled...they saw but never smiled...and we were like........" wow they are really srtict on no smiling?"

ok lah i must do my work...tonnes of 'em tah

Holiday!! let's celebrate!!!

2009-04-09T05:11:00.000-07:00

Ok so you guys, today the first thing I did was the same, waiting for my friends. I hate my JC life. So luckily we have no mass PE, we had to like listen to the student council talk on how they would improve the standards of the school. And today I was exceptionally happy cause me and nazri got back together..its not as if we broke up or something...we just had some quarrel. STUPID JC.

Anyway, American Idol, scott is finally eliminated!!! AT last...I believe he has been like getting sympathy votes or something. I never like him since the starting. And I am beginning to lose hope for my once favourite contestant, LIL' Rounds. She does have the voice but she just can't make the song her own.... Oh and after reading's Aisyah's blog, that Adam Lambert is gay. I totally expected that. I just thought that he is the one that may look like one but is not...I did saw this disturbing video...ya it does support the quote, " curiosity kills the cat" He is good ...in a very scary way of singing. but still...I'm still waiting for Lil' to change my mind on losing hope on her.

what is my true fear???

2009-04-05T01:50:00.001-07:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Where Your life is Going You are a very determined and willful individual. You have strong set goals that you plan to reach no matter what. You may be an overachiever at times but that's because you want to be successful in your life. The greatest accomplishment for you is when you reach a high goal. However, you constantly worry if you're not good enough to do something, or if your life doesn't go according to plan. You worry a lot about your future, and if it will meet all your high criteria. Don't worry, with your determination, and hard work ethic, and organization chances are things will go according to plan.
Commitment
Being Alone
Losing Someone
Disappointment
Looked down on
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

that is so true....gosh

Happy birthday mum

2009-04-03T20:34:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA...SAME AGE AS PAULA ABDUL HEHEHE...she was like...Eh wait I haven't put make-up yet...which angle my face should face(in malay)....I guess that's where my model-ity came from...

Fierceness sinking into us....

Oh this was all taken at night...but my aunt's hand was blocking my smile

OK you guys say that my eyes were big...but I didn't know how big it was until i saw this pic...

our angle was like this cause the other pics was upright and we loked fat so we tilted down but coincidentaly we were at the same angle...oh wellss twins

So yesterday was my mum's birthday...chocolate cake...yum..but before that I was so moody when i came back home cause at school I overheard someone like having a negative tone about ne "eh hafiiz want to follow" I saw and heard...but i'm so EFFING paranoid...so let's not make this a big deal...I still love him/her. So in school i was already moody cause I just went for my re-test...my first failure...I was so depressed...my chem i just passed...my GP i just passed...my lit I got a C...my malay i'm failing my homework...my econs...i did got an A for the tests...but i'm diminishing....So its all confusing...

so at night my whole family and some of my maternal family went to west coast at night. We tried all the physical stuff there...kinda lame though there's this rope and i think we're suppose to walk on it...but right at the middle I was practically standing on the ground cause the rope was touching it...so I was like....ok...............so we went to Mcdonalds...haha unhealthy food...THAT'S MY JAM!!!!!....haha its just french fries and a sip of my bro's milo drink...haha...then I slept all the way back home cause I was so sleepy and tired...haha

Many Many writing

2009-03-30T08:41:00.000-07:00

OK here you see nazri modelling again...and you can see the time taken which was at 5.58pm.hehe

OK so today, I was really moody in college, felt really sad about something. Can't really post it up although it's called THE PERSONAL BLOG. So i landed in school sat down and just day dream. So yada yada yada....Did PE, got a back injury( Why me?!)

Grace got mad that someone took her water bottle without permission and then returned it without the water left...it was initially filled up...and I was appauled by that. I can see from grace's eyes that she was like about to cry...i dunno how i can see through that...

So in drama i was told that i was not doing much in drama and I did agree to that...I have been moody and not being confident and all. Cause my people were not with me in my commitee but that does not mean i'm hating my commitee its just that I'm more myself with my people than them....NO HARD FEELINGS....

2009-03-27T18:00:00.000-07:00

I AM LOVING HIM......LOVING YA

ya dig?(followed aisyah's)

He is so abeying with what i told him...but its kinda basic you guys know it as well. taking your picture from above pushes down your fats from your cheeks or wherever so you get a more firm or thin look. And at last, he's not doing the "smile with your eyes" nazri you do not know how to do it...haha....

So, today is Saturday and I'm currently doing my A levels Project work PI Draft. No time to go out. Well, maybe for a while with ' you know who '. Anyways, yesterday I wanted to go back to YSS to see my St.johns and also to see Aisyah( missing you) but I was too late. well duh it was already 5.15pm. what was I thinking. So can't waste time now...got a lot of work to do before monday. bye...maybe i'll add on to this post in the mid-day or something...I so wanna watch pokemon...haha GUILTY...

SPARKS

2009-03-23T01:47:00.001-07:00

OK good news...haha for me that is. I got like 37/40 for my project work assignment "sparks". My teacher wrote " Best GPP I have read so far! =)" I was so happy....So i was talking in class...and the teacher was already at the peak of his head....and I stupidly still talking...he then was like SSSHHHH...ok then go read yourselves.....(Cause he was initially explaining to us this PW thing...) I felt so guilty...I just created a bad impression of myself.

SO before that was PE. We had to run like 400m in 2 mins....i got 2 min 07 secs....then a 2 min break and then another 400m in 2 mins...this time I ran faster... At the end...my soles hurt like hell....I was like "ouch x50" so i skipped the next round.....then after I felt better I ran 800m in like 5min 12 secs.....it was suppose to be 5...but good effort from me....Thne we had to go to the gym -_-.....haha I managed to do 3 pull-ups....* proudness sinking in*

So ya...oh ya..I need you guys help...in my PW work...

I need to choose one of these tasks..

1) EMERGENCY

= this project task asks you to show how an understanding of emergencies may be of help to human communities in the future

* I dentify any one emergency( eg. natural, economic ect.) which has affected the country, region or neighbourhood and describe its features and effects.

* Suggest how lessons learned from this emergency might be used to develop strategies for dealing with similar circumstances in the future...

2) CONSERVATION

= This project task asks you to look at the concept of conservation and show how and why it might be applied to a particular set of circumstances

* Choose an example of conservation ( eg. artefacts, buldings, landscape, flora or fauna ect.) and show why the process was necessary.

* Suggest how the lessons learned from your example could be applied to another area or topic that could be considered for conservation.

YOU SEE THE WORDS "ECT" IT MEANS WE HAVE TO THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX...LIKE MUSIC OR FASHION... SO I NEED YOUR IDEAS BE IT MILD OR COMPREHENSIVE..THX

dreamy...

2009-03-22T07:40:00.000-07:00

OK, so today is a free day for me cause I finished all of my homework...it is true " work now, play later"... I went out with nazri(my half white and Malay dude)...at last...i so deserve a good rest after all my work for the projects being " forced" to do..even my mum scolded me for studying too much...

So me and my Sib's and my aunt went to city hall...suntec city and wen to this UNI Australia Fest...it has got all these universities in Australia...it's kinda inspiring to see the universities, to the extend that i want to go....like if i want to go to do mass communication, I would prefer to get a more fluent accent than a forced, fake accent that I have now. Its gonna be useful in my career. And my English would get better since I'm (sorry)...since I would be in this atmosphere of Aussies and then i can suck(sorry again).......gain their accent and I'll be so cool...haha....i just hope my mum allow me to....oh wait I have NS...silly...waste of time...what for? we are so small..no one can see us on the map..." the tip of Malaysia" they would call it on the map...such vigour activity is not good for me...I think i'd be given a Pink triangle in my military camp.( Don't know? go search)

tomorrow got PE....gosh...why?!?!?!...so toodles

So many homework...so very tired

2009-03-20T03:07:00.000-07:00

Very, very busy people...but still staying fierce..... OK so people, I have tonnes of homework. I did 3/4 of it. There's this homework that includes reviewing the article which was suppose to be geography related but read this.( Remember the Si Chuan Earthquake?)

" Mr Chen Wen, an information officer in the city of Mianyang at the epicentre of the quake, told Chinese media that local officials created a tour to the affected area in response to demand from people wanting to see tragic sites linked to the disaster."

"Ms Alicia Seah, senior vice-president of marketing and public relations of CTC Holidays, said: 'There are people who have not experienced natural disasters before.'"

"'As Singaporeans, we don't usually experience these natural disasters, so we're curious to see how devastating it can be."

That really hit me, was so angry at this article that i wrote up to 1 and a half pages of review. The next page of my jotter book has another article, So i just glued another page over it to write my review. I mean... do they have a sense of humility?!?!?!...to the extend of building a museum...A TOUR...SERIOUSLY? ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!?!.....the journalist bitch in me came out...haha i had to write for like 4 articles..

anyways....I was so beat writing and typing so many projects..i just had to take my friday off from studying...so i watched X-MEN animated series...the 1993 one...where storm was the strong one...she's hot...and fierce...

CVD....VCD

2009-03-14T05:41:00.001-07:00

This was in the class room where we tranfered here cause our booth was too hot and no customers came...you can see ferry was like all solemn...it kinda drained all my energy out seeing him all moody and all... This was the stupid place we had to set our booths up...the girls were using their umbrella...

And here's lin shan....and jiamin...and me...our classmates came..you quan...and we took pictures

Ans here's my girlfriend(haha)...miss her so much...she's looking good as usual...she's in guitar...

And jianxin here looking good as ever...

So today was out CVD carnival..our booth was not successful at all cause our games were too cliche and the place we had our games were in the stadium....jiajin came...and we were like so happy to see each other...still missing her...

next, was salwah and azlin coming in kinda at the wrong time...cause my coupons was finished and they could not buy anything..so as to not make them dread about it, i told them to better leave for the best of them...cause i know how boring it can get with no coupons....i told them to hang out like northpoint or something....well at least i got to see salwah after so long...

as aforementioned..i spent all my coupons...well i sold $5 to jianxin...bought 4 longan drinks...1 lemonade...1 hotdog bun....went to clubbing( I KNOW RIGHT!!!!) but i went in there and i felt so unvomfortable..i left str8 away...althought it cost $3...but later on me, nanthinii, lavanya andthe girl that has the name rhyming with lavanya that starts with an 's'...(sorry) went in the room just to have air-con...haha actually the club was called XXX CLUBHOUSE...

So later we had to pack up but it was raining..so we waited. Me, nanthinii, yolanda, weiping walked around the school and we catwalk along the isle...haha

just shut up ok?

2009-03-13T06:15:00.000-07:00

OK so I'm like pissed of with someone in my CTG...its not as if i have a grudge for this particular person all the while...its just at that particulat momemt where he/she pissed me off. I mean I don't mind of he/she talks bad about me because i've had this problem since i was a small boy...but if you disagree with something then just say it! Don't go to the extend of disrespecting and be ignorant about me and start stereotyping about me and the drama commitee. You don't do that...you stereotyper.

OK now that's over...back to my story of just now...after the CVD thingy which i left early...i went to school to see our teachers and see our ST. John members..So we met Mrs tan..lovely teacher...but she is so stress with the changes of the new principal had made..i feel pity for her..really..she has been trough so much.. with the brother in law and all..and she was there beside me when my dad passed away...like she talked to me...and it was really nice and thoughtful of her....

ME???? acting???

2009-03-12T15:20:00.000-07:00

So hail guys!!! I just got my economics test and i got a 9 1/2 out of 10....i was SO happy....cause my previous test i got a 7...the highest was nasir(not nazri...nasir)..it was actually a surprise for us...well that's because rainer gave me the Qns and nazri must have overheard it...I could have gotten a full marks but the teacher only marks the written work that is on the given space...any extra coming out of that space would not be taken to account and my excess was my last statement...which is concluding that the goods that have its demand fall due to the decrease of price of another good...it an inferior good...that line was so important...well a 9.5 is still GOOD FOR ME..

So during drama..which was 2 days ago I was in my reading and writing community and we were suppose to write about an album or movie we recently listened or watched and we have to write a review on it...i wrote about whitney houston album...that was the recent album i had listened to...so i wrote about the song and all that stuff...so after that the oral community finished their work and they told me that i was given a role to act out during the literary festival(they were in charge of that festival)...So i was given the rold af a boyfriend of a crazy girl...so who would my girlfriend be?(IRONICAL HUH?) they would have to go through an audition cause there are 2 rols of girls and there are like more that 6 girls...i didn't need an audition...i'm the only guys there...

So saturday is mt CVD festival..its like orientation day for secondary school...but i need to invite 3 friends...so if any one of you wants to come with me...the more the merrier...do come...

2009-03-09T07:12:00.000-07:00

So the blondie is TEREZA...the chinese girl well not chinese..look-a-like-chinese is SAM...sorry if i ger anything info wrong... The malay girl is ATIKAH...AND WE ARE THE READING AND WRITING COMMUNITY... I went up on the table cause she was like taller than me ...like REALLY TALL....very model-like...

I'm suppose to be the male hero while the other 3 are charlie's angels...haha

I'm loving this picture...seriously...

So today chemistry was by far the most exciting lesson ever...Mrs sim(I KNOW) gave us each a drink...and we calculated the concentration of sugar...i had FRUTTY ...yummy people

After that, we had our lit and i was sitting with my Bimbo club members and found out that my class had to have 4.5 hours of lit lessons due to the camp...and moreover, tomm is a half day cause our college did well...arts students 90% got As and Bs...that was a sign of HOPE FOR US...

So we had drama and we were seperated to our sub groups and mine is reading and writing....and the teacher was like playing games with us in the starting of the cca...we played catch the white tiger which is similar to "what time is it Mr wolf?"...It was fun while it lasted...

then we had to talk about our project on a book titled" the white tiger" and after that i took out my camera and we cam whored like half and hour and these people you see here and all " berbahasa slang" and i was like blending in...FUN

I needed a good laugh

2009-03-08T01:36:00.001-08:00

we went for a centre parting look...nurul looked like a chinese girl and aisyah was like...a nerd...but lyn really looked ok in this...not wierd at all... In the mrt....the reflection where we gossiped about people

they had their hair down and all so i decided to bring mine down...so yeah my gelled hair was destroyed...but having fun is all that matters....haha....aisyah said i looked like a mod model.....and i was ..." thanks girl"

This was a blooper shot...i was about to click but aisyah wanted to stop cause of i dunno what...but its too late...i took the shot...but it looked cool

in starbucks...

Oh this was in the library...our meeting spot

OK so me aisyah nurul and azlin went out, cause i'm so stressed at home with college and all. So our meeting place was the north point library. So we sat and we chat a little. And then it got a little bored. Then we went out of the library and we stoned.....and we went on the basement floor and we stoned again...

So we decided to go to AMK hub.....but we stoned there again...we stoned in front of this old guy selling tissue and he was like chasing us away....i thought that was rude...like GO SELL YOUR TISSUE OTHER PLACE MAN... but we did felt wrong to stand in front of him...we did ate at the banquet....then we stoned on where to go... but we landed in macdomalds for a while...but we didn'y buy anything...we sat there for a few minutes...

then we decided to go to paragon orchard...then we had the fun....we went to starbucks and wanted to sit right in front of "that CD shop" but too many people...then we shifted...and shifted again till lyn and I had to carry the chair all the way to the other side of the starbucks to get to our desired seatings....haha...and nurul was LIKE feeling the song....haha so many funny expressions...and this guy had a video camera in his hands and the angle was towards us....and we laughed cause we imagined nuruls vid on youtube....hahaha title "crazy singaporeans".

oh ya nurul belanja a caramel drink for me THANK YOU SO MUCH GIRL.....so we chat and chat and chat all the way till 4pm....and then we went on the MRT to go home...

we took pictures of each other with a centre parting fringe...and aisyah looked like a monkey...and we saw a hot guy that is a caucasian but a tinge of chinese to it...lovely build....but it only lasted for 2 stops....sorry nazri....omg it was so much fun...and now i'm at home doing my work...

my new life in school....period

2009-03-06T06:27:00.000-08:00

SO just now, the yishun secondary sec 5 student went to our college to have a friendly match...the 3rd from the left is ashraf..haha

So this is not the bimbo club i'm in i was talking about...some of them are from there....the one in blue(grace) and the one in green with white band(fatimah)...and so we took a picture...

the two at the sides are from the bimbo club. and they did a tyra banks pose...(i totally love them)

So you guys, sorry for the late update. I've been really busy these days with my project but i'm done with most of them, just need to do a presentation on our innovation and another presentation on my haiku poem.

Well, i just came back from my adventure camp in Bintan...I lost weight and i got tanned LIKE MAJORLY tanned. I had a lot of problem in the toilet part of the camp but managed to overcome it. I went of the sampan(sacrificed myself to go to the sampan while the other 20 went on the dragon boat...2 others sacrificed themselves too) SAMPAN ROCKS...we were rowing so fast....but then turned back to see the local kampong guy helping us push the sampan...when he let it go, we didn't even budge..HAHAHA funny...

So my friends are multi racial....FUN...

So tomorrow i'm meeting aisyah and some people which she invited(from sec school of course) we need to meet up so we don't forget each other...SEE i sacrificed my studying time to hang out...anyways my mum says that i desreve a rest...she has been looking at how i have been studying..

STILL BUSY...

2009-02-21T19:19:00.000-08:00

SO YOU GUYS I HAVE BEEN REALLY STRESSED OUT BY STUDIES...WELL THIS IS THE LIFE OF A JC-IAN...

So I did present my Malay brochure in front of like 10 students. My friend told me that my Malay sounds like a Philippine. And I was like, "Really?, but my English OK right?" and she was like...ya it sounds like you stayed in USA for a long while...and i was like "hip hip hooray for me"

So I also got my Econs test, 5/10...highest 6/10...my mum still proud of me...

So During the mass PE, we didn't do anything we just had to do admin work on the adventure camp...and after that I wanted to just wear my uniform over my PE attire. I had to go change in the toilet cause we do not have a fixed class like secondary school to change...and I went in and there was like 10 shirtless guys and it would be so wierd if I just came in and went out..So i was "forced" to change inside...it was a wierd experience but a mild good one...*sinful act

So I have lots of work to do, 6 articles to do, a haiku of beauty and the beast...econs later cause we do not have econs on monday....but we do have PE and drama....yay for drama ...na-ah for PE

Beauty seeks Big Beast,

Must be hunk, but generous,

Large castle preferred.

This is my first verse....i have to write another 12 verses.....HELP..

Pre-U seminar

2009-02-19T14:54:00.001-08:00

So, Today is friday and it's like 7 am...i'm suppose to have school at 8.40am..and i need to wake up at 6.45am but my bro wake me up at 5.45am...he said" abang dah empat puluh lima" and i thought it was 6.45....

so anyways we had a malay project and we need to present in front of class(less than 10 ppl) so i'm not that afraid ( or am i ? )

more of me later at like 6pm...my "maktab"(cheh) finishes at like 4 something...

i'm a dreamer part dos

2009-02-18T02:33:00.000-08:00

Hey you guys...i'm a dreamer part dos here it is...

So, i'm so stressed with my leadership life in my college...so Aisyah invited me to go to tokyo as my short break...with a tour guide tikiyo.....so atikah and I followed aisyah...and we did lots of stuff..i had to wear a lion's mane...

So later Aisyah dropped me of at hollywood...my modelling career is on its way to success...I am modelling for Marc jacobs...So I had this long bell-bottom pants to work it...i was given a mod style to take.....So i met my childhood friends there, naomi cambell....marc Schenkenberg...Cindy crawford...I'm doing a winter collection...after that i had to attend a photoshoot for Levi's...

After that i singed a lot of autographs for my fans....and then i had to get back to my college...but before that...I called Aisyah and Atikah to go for a midnight drive...I of course got my driving lisense...my lexus car....we were actually going to las vegas where there are lots of lightings...but decided to go to spain...

So we wandered up and down the Ramblas...we visited the sagrada familia and the picasso museum....It was really fun...

we spent long hours absorbing the love we had for spain...lovely country...but not all country is all good...there was this group of bad company that walked towards us....His name was...if I'm not wrong...Barfybag crapshitter...and he was like all over us...but aisyah was so in the lawyer/debator mood...i was still in my modelling mood...atikah was there trying to calm the whole situation down...as if they would listen....Aisyah was bombarding them with vulgarities especially toward barfybag...I was able to hit one of the gang members...haha...

After that we took a cab and drove straight to the hotel...5 stars hotel...i got a king size bed...Aosyah and Atikah got the same room...well they want to be together...So we decided tocome over to my room and call room service...we ordered Satay(cause we were so far away from home)...and pizza(the best ones)...got lots of honey chicken...and we were bloated after that...

So we went to sleep and then i drop Aisyah back to her place....same goes for Atikah...well I had to do my project of setting up a magazine and i'm going to ask aisyah and atikah to design for me the cover page.....

making up stories is so much fun....waiting for part dres

I'm a dreamer...from aisyah

2009-02-14T20:50:00.000-08:00

OK you guys...i read aisyah's blog and she wrote about her ideal life and supposedly, asked all of y'all to write about your ideal life...here it goes...

HEY YOU GUYS

I'm hafiiz , 18, i love in hollywood....my birthday in on the 14 september...my house is 3 storey high..i have 50 servants(who i treat nicely) around me...i wear a different velvety robe each time i walk out of my room...but now i'm living in a dorm in a college..

I'm studying communication studies...so its more of writing and speaking my hearts desire to the people in MY school..I'm the captain of a floorball team...and also the secretary of the magazine publishing club...life is tough when you have to deal with SO many thing...

...I'm a hunk...i'm straight..i have a lovely caucasion girlfriend who adores me and like-wise towards her...

i own a high-tech phone(i dunno what brand is there now so i gasak buta)...which has a large screen that has a__________(i dunno what cool functions there is)

Living in a gargantuous mansion...its SO OBVIOUS THAT I'M $RICH$....i have money sent to me privately to me every wednesday(i dunno why wed dun ask)......i can go back home every weekends...i fly back to my mansion with my private plane.....

and you guys might thing that i'm a boaster but...what to do...i'm richSLAP!!!!! what am i doing???dreaming??...

So, how about you guys? What’ s your ideal life? Post a blog about your ideal life

what is your deadly sin???

2009-02-14T16:11:00.000-08:00

Greed:	Low
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	High
Pride:	Medium

Discover Your Sins - Click Here

OMG...I'M LUST....WHAT THE HECK DID I CLICK MAN...WELL ITS BETTER THAN PRIDE...OR SLOTH..OR EVEN GLUTTONY

I EXPECTED MINE TO ENVY TO BE MINE....HAHA OH WELLS...LET ME BE THE LUST GUY...

BUSY YSUB BUSY

2009-02-13T18:38:00.000-08:00

SO I'M SORRY I HAVEN'T UPDATED YOU GUYS.....

I was really busy with my work...i have economics project to do...1500 words...my tutor told me not to copy from the net so I used my power of language and convert all of my copied work to a more personal infomation...i need to find 5 people in my group...

then i have my literature to read up..i'm reading the summary of each 5 chapters to understand more about the book b4 getting the book...

i have geography to read up on...lithosphere..its more difficult than sec school one...that plateoclimatology which is simply ancient climate readings of the earth.....there is the continental drift and the evidences of that like similar fossil found on each end of the continents...

I still have my chemistry to do...its just h1 and i'm having difficulties doing it...LUCKILY I NEVER TAKE SCIENCE COURSE OR ELSE I WOULD HAVE SUFFER BIG TIME!!!!!

So if you guys wanna know the changes that has happen to me....

1) one of the girls know about my secret

2) my cheeks has finally lost its fats after the tiring orientation.(i'm loving my thin cheeks)

3) i'm going to the mosque with like 20 other malay guys there....we're like a mob...i have a malay friend, ferry, that i TALK TO unlike those in my sec school....

4) i have a caucasion man as my prose lit teacher and a latin-like for my poem teacher...MUAHAHA

5) the class still do not know me as the supermodel YET.....ITS A BIT DIFFICULT CAUSE THERE IS NO PIC TAKEN FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS...I'M LOSING MY TOUCH...I HAVE TO RE-WATCH ALL THE ANTM EPISODES

you're either in or you're out

2009-02-07T16:53:00.001-08:00

OK en vogue is our group name....aisyah and azlin is in...i need one more...
I HAVE NOW LIKE 3 GROUPS

1) the vandellas: my siblings

2)yong xiang and the supremes: yong xiang chin won alex and me

3) alex and the supremes: alex me and chin won..(yong xiang was out due to unconsent attitude)HAHA IT WAS DECIDED DURING A MATHS CLASS

4) en vogue: aisyah, azlin, me and _______(who wants to join?)

our singing debut...

2009-02-06T19:13:00.000-08:00

SO AZLIN WAS LIKE SAYING THE VIDEO I POSTED REMINDED HER OF OUR DANCING GROUP IN SEC 2 DRAMA CLASS WHERE I LIP SANG THE MICHAEL BUBLE SONG....SO I FOUND A GROUP FOR US
EN VOGUE!!!!!!

OK so yesterday was the last day of the tiring orientation...its also the birthday of our friends...sherpy....shermy..oh its SHERMAN!!!!he's like really big literally..we all gave money and buy a cake...but before that we played sports...i actually wanted to play the hand ball and not the basketball...but it was fun watching..i just dun like this particular indian guy who is so disrespectful to the other group...he's like a sore loser..even lin ying agreed..

so since i didn't participated in that round..i decided to go for the netball-_-...i did try to shoot but unsuccessful..we lost DUH....

so after that when we wanted to senbahyang jumaat...ferry said that all the malay guys are going to go to the masjid as a group...that strucked me...i have never walked in such a big malay group b4...in fact i have never walked with at least 2 malay boys...so i walked alone in the middle of the malay crowd...ferry got the friends to walk with...so after that me and ferry went o northpoint to buy the cake...i escape the track run race...phew...my legs were already painful...

after we buy the cake...a few performances...Alex(from my house group) won the dance off against other houses...well he was from some dance group in sec school...haha...then i had to leave early cause to day is my parent's anniversary but my dad is no more with us...so my family and my aunti and uncle decided to jalan2 to keep her mind of 5th sept...

so we went to eat sushi...urgh and went to giant..and i bought a book " mathematics of love" its about some war and the passion for love...

ok no more stories...just hope i can get magazine publishing as my cca...or else its floorball..

my life is an irony...

2009-02-04T02:31:00.000-08:00

ok you guys...my life now is such an irony...I scored A1 for both of my maths and yet i do not like maths hence not taking it in JC...the teachers there discriminated me and saying that its a waste that i'm not taking maths....secondly..i have always dreamt of being a journalist but still i am anti-social toward strangers...what journalist have such low confidence???you tell me?!?!?!?!

so i actually wanted to take H2 chemistry and H1 geog...but the teachers say that courses in UNI needs 2 science subject..i only have one...the reason i wanted H2 chem is because if i ever changed my interest i can go to a science faculty in uni and H2 chem covers a lot of the courses...and geog has nothing much...

so the teacher told me to take 4 H2 subject: lit, econs, chem, maths...so i was like stressed out there in the office...so i went to the counter and asked for a phone...i called my sis and she told me not to take 4 H2s cause its a huge risk...knowing that i have less than 2 years to study these 7 sujects....

so when i was waiting for my appeal "protest" i met these 2 girls who had the same problem as me..wow...and we became good friends haha we laughed so much whilw waiting for our turn to appeal...i so want her in my class...there is noone in my class to bring the live up...for instance alex did made us laugh in 4e7..

another thing i'm angry about is tomorrow the malay girls are going to the zoo...and i have to stay in school and participate in some yishun race...

diva...divian??what's her name again??

2009-02-03T03:04:00.000-08:00

so this morning when i was going to YJC...i saw houlin running around the track..in this park...a small one...the one you have to walk past to go to northpoint...i met him twice...haha when i saw him he waved...then when i almost got out of the park...houlin completed the track and i saw him..its like i'm slow and houlin passed me twice...

ok so i make 2 new friends...lin ying and felicia...both from mayflower secondary...well i know felicia from the mass dance...we had to dance on stage...omg...but luckily i told alex to dance beside me....with his partner of course...well alex and his partner was chosen as the best dancers in our group HOW NOT SURPRISING...

so tomorrow there is more games...urgh..sports...damn..why does this feel like a camp we had when we were in sec 2...

i have yet to find my new "ALEX" in my class....someone who will follow me or i will follow him...a girl can also do...i have been walking alone all this while...its really saddening cause other ppl has got a friend to go with and i have no one...but i talk a lot to the girls when i am in the mood...the guys i dunno...they would talk to me...HOW STRANGE IS THAT? no guys ever start a conversation with me...it is I who has to do it...well ...it is a good thing..though

alex found a new friend...someone who looks like samuel...he's like the next "HAFIIZ" for him...the guys in my class is like...how to say?...i dunno...they dun

" call out " to me..i dun feel the vibe..haha

my first day in a jc

2009-02-02T04:07:00.000-08:00

OK so the first day of jc i had to wait for jiamin cause i dunno where YJC is...but i was too early..jaimin asked me to wait for her...so i waited under the blog ..reading my book...

So over there i sat at the wrong class..haha mine is 112 i sat at 102...lucky alex came and told me it was the wrong class..

so i made 3 very good friends...nanthini(she got 12 for L1R5), Rachel(17 for L1R5) and ferry(retained)..ferry is a malay guy..he's like 18 and he and i are the only malay guys in the class..

so this is my...so called what i want combination...H1 geography...H2 literature, H2 econs , H2 chemistry...i think i'm the only one in the class taking arts...well i know where i wanna go in uni

the lit teacher is a white guy...i hope i gets him...*crossed fingers*...the malay teacher was talking a lot of the diff format in sec malay and Jc malay...HE ASKED ME TO TAKE MALAY CULTURAL SOCIETY...CAUSE HE SAY I GOT SOME POTENTIAL...PFFT...HE EVEN ASKED ME TO JOIN THIS KOMPANG SHIT...HAHA...

anyways...we played a couple of stupid games...made some friends..see..i must not need any friends or else i become too dependent with friends..hence not making new one..

we even had to shout out some cheers...we are what group??BRAZEN??? i dunno its too hard to remember...

so i'm really tired now...but i came back home still upbeat...haha

jealousy is my best policy

2009-01-30T16:42:00.000-08:00

so this is a scream shot....a genuine scream shot...the waves was just too strong to keep my composed face...attached...i was actually holding on to my pants...its falling off...too heavy with water..haha this was on the rocks...i was coutureing myself...this is where i cut myself on my foot...you can see the sharp rocks

this was sucha wasted shot...we were suppose to be "running" slowly and my mum's hand just HAD to cover my face

My life is now, currently taken over by studying

So...since JC is starting on monday...5 days of orientation...i cannot meet Aisyah...or nazri...(NOOOOO) like for a very long time..cause my brain now has switched to its education mode. No more friends allowed through my brain(Well not to that extend).

I think this is the end of my endless laughter.... I have 2 new subject to work on. Literature and economics....both very important to me. I just hope I don't get some shakespear shit...Give me something about race man...

So I think rui ling is the only one who i know is going to be in my class....and FYI me class is "112" how ridiculous is that...112..pfft...So i was planning to find a malay guy and sit beside him and be friends with him...I need to be with my own kind ....people..

So yesterday afternoon...the YJC called me it was a low voice...very charming voice...and he asked me if i was posted to YJC..i was like YA but in my head i was like " DON'T SAY ME BEING POSTED TO YJC WAS A MISTAKE AND I HAVE TO GO TO OTHER JC"

But he was like, "you have to come to the hall by 7.30 blah x5......and need to bring 20 bugs"

so i was like ok thank you....

Don't show me attitude, girl

2009-01-29T22:37:00.000-08:00

THIS WAS A PICTURE TAKEN BEFORE THE REAL POSING BEGAN ...LETS CALL IT A POST-PICTURE...VERY HARD TO GET TO OUR SPOT I SLIPPED MANY TIMES... THIS IS THE PICTURE TAKEN AFTER LONG MINUTES OF GETTING TO OUR SPOT...AND LOOK AT MY LEFT LEG...I'M SO BONEY

THIS IS THE BUFFET IN OUR HOTEL...MY BRO TOOK A PIC...WELL I POSED AN ANGRY " WHAT-NOW" FACE

THIS IS AT THE KAMPONG AREA I TYPED ABOUT...THE MARRIAGE THINGY...UNDER THE BAMBOO DRAPERY

OK so after i sembahyang subuh...i slept...then i was woken up by my mum as she wanted to show me the message about the school i am posted to before she has to go to work...so i did get what i wanted...YJC arts course...many people i chat to didn't like the course or something...i just asked them and they're like..geez...don't disturb me...and all that shit...well i do know that they are angry but don't be disrespectful and be ignorant...

so after i know i got the school...the next problem was that i had thrown my sec uniform..so i do not have any...luckily alex told me that he would lend me his on monday morning...so that was done...

after that i went to the masjid...and there was this old man that was talking to himself...but he looked like he was talking to someone...but that someone is not there...(horror song)...and he was talking about some mahathir...baca al-fatihah tiga kali...i was scared...and i'm sitting 3 metres away from him..he could just walk up to me and say some scary things at me...

but nothing happen...when the imam came to say the syarahan...he read it in english...first time...and i was PAYING ATTENTION..haha..its about financial crisis and we need to do our part to help others in need...

No zoo for me...damn

2009-01-28T21:55:00.000-08:00

so this is our hotel room....

me and my mum hate japanese food...well not so to my mum...she just hate the soup that taste like kicap....i hate sushis...

this was when we went to the kampong area..there was a marraige thingy there...i was actually posing to be sad and all...my specialty...but my aunt came and she asked me to smile...so she put her fingers and force a smile..but i kept my face the way i wanted to..

OK...I'm angry that there is a rumour out there that is so not true...I'm here suffering and there they are saying that everything is a lie...they so do not know the life I'm leading right now...that is so immature, supercilious, barbaric..all the banned words in my list...i slam it on your face...

now that i get it off my chest...i'm still pissed off that i cannot go to the zoo with the malay girls

cause i have JC to go to....urgh..i so longed to go to the zoo and take some wild pics...like literally wild...they get to enjoy while i have to study...

next up i cannot go starbucking with aisyah and nurul...that sucks...i need a good laugh...education is so tearing us apart..so aisyah said..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY..ELFIE

2009-01-27T20:52:00.000-08:00

I DEDICATE THIS VIDEO TO YOU..ITS TYRA SINGING HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONG TO SOMEBODY...JUST IMAGINE ME AS TYRA AND YOU ARE THE PERSON TYRA IS LOOKING AT(WHICH IS NOT IN THE VIDEO)

Happy belated birthday elfira...sorry for the late wishes...i was in malaysia for like 2 days..and you weren't online when i came back home and i do not have your mobile number...

Elfira has lots of nicknames..fifi, elfie, elfra, elfiro, elferrari, elfairy, elfurry, well we did conteng these names on your fullscape paper cover...

elfira is also the QUEEN OF CAM WHORE -ITY i see no other girl that cam-whores herself as much as her..as in you..lovely unique personality..but i cannot pin-point the style that you are in now, reason being i am late in the fashion time...i'm stuck...

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Malaysia truly asia

2009-01-27T02:05:00.000-08:00

I dedicate this song "at last" to aisyah...cause she has helped me so much...muhaimin too...thx you guys..in fact..this is the only song aisyah likes in my oldies list

this was in our hotel room we took timer and i took the matress this was early in the morning after sembahyang subuh we haven't mandi yet in front of us is the beach...

this is the rock that is hard for us to get up on...the water is up to knee-deep and its very rocky

we jumped at the beach...haha fun...the waves were so strong

i love this pic we sat on the rock that cut my feet...and we went into the salt water...OUCH!!!!!

i love this pic to....since we were crouching i had to show my pity face...

I SAW ALEX..HAHA BUT IT WAS NOT A VERY GOOD PIC...I WAS ALL UNCOMFORTABLE...SWEATING AND ALL..HUNGRY..SLEEPY..TIRED

this was at the kampong area...we posed under the drapery of trees and we posed

this was wen we were leaving our home...

ok i just came back from malaysia...malaysia was fun...except for the first part where we were either suppose to live in a deserted resort or find another hotel....you know it was scary..there is no one there...so we went to the water fall resort and I SAW ALEX THERE ALL WET WEARING HIS SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS BOXERS what are the odds of me meeting him at malaysia???so we took a pic and i didn't take any pics there cause i was in a very uncomfortable atmosphere...i'm all sweating...the place was crowded...

i finally bought my chewing gum...but i specially bought the gum thats whitens my teeth...and i bought 2 bottles..haha...hope it works..

so we slept at the pulai resort...and put our bags there and went to the beach...the waves were so big..twice as big as any waves you can find in singapore.....we were attracting attention with our modelling on the rocks...mind you it was hard work to get up the rock...i had to help my grandma up the rock...

so after we went beach-ing...me and me sis showered in the same toilet...literally...haha there's actually another curtain separating into 2 toilets...so my sis used the bath tub while i bath in this one metre by one metre...but mine was lighted by a beautiful yellow light...my sis got some white lighting....

i dun want to write a lot cause i know you all won't read it...

Paking up...for the day

2009-01-24T20:16:00.000-08:00

So this song is from the movie TRIPLET OF BELLEVILLE i just love the song...basically of its synchronization...its just like us 3...we individually picked our characters...i'm the tallest and i have the biggest nose and i hunch the most so i'm the one on the left of the 3 women standing...my sis is the middle one and that makes my bro the one on the right...

if you watched the advertisement on OKTO, they were dancing and singing...in this scene below...we were totally trying to dance the way they were...haha..clapping and i was dancing like an african if you were to listen the starting of the song...SO I POSTED THE VIDEO (ABOVE) FOR YOU TO SEE THE DANCING STEPS THAT WE STUPIDLY DID...THE 3 LADIES WERE ACTUALLY STARS FOR LIKE 20 YEARS AGO...NOW THEY ARE NON-EXISTENT

oK tomorrow i'm going of to malaysia(drag) and i cannot seem to find any clothing..i'm too thin at the waist and my legs are too long.....my hands are too long but my body is short...get it? so if i take a pants that fits my waist, the leggings reaches just under my knees...and if i find a long sleeve shirt that fits my long hands...the shirt looks over-sized...so..my mum altered my pants and long sleeve shirt.. THX MUM..

i would have to bring the camera...a must have in our family to capture the drama of the outback of the trip...so now the batt is charging we are so going to bring the charger there to charge the batt overnight...lets hope i get to model well there...in malaysia truly asia.. YA RIGHT

malaysia here we come :(

2009-01-23T17:59:00.000-08:00

OK so monday we(my family and my aunt and my grandmother) going to malaysia for 2 days 1 night...at where? i don't know..maybe at kota tinggi..the price is RM$138....per night, dinner provided...so that would be approximately 57.59413 Singapore Dollar ....well..its ok ah. There's no way else planned for us to go..

But my main purpose is to buy and eat chewing gum/ bubble gum as much as possible making myself contented cause we cannot smuggle it in...security is pretty tight nowadays. its gonna be cramped in my uncle's car cause 8 ppl are squeezing into that car...a big one actually i just do not know the name of such vehicle. so my aunt told me that i had to keep on switching seats from back to the front cause my legs are too long to just stay at one position for a long ride..it is gonna be a long ride...the seat i usually sit on has not a lot of leg space for me...so i get very uncomfortable..

I dun want to sound fussy but i really do not want to go to malaysia...i rather stay at home...ever since my dad passed away i have no feeling of going overseas to "enjoy" meself...

and i cannot go to xi wen's CNY "party" or izzit just a get-together

I do want to go to the zoo..i miss it so much... i cannot remember the last time i have been there...its that long..i want to take pictures there...bond with the animals..haha( creepy i know) maybe i can have the snake to drape over my shoulder.. and a picture be taken...i have never done that..i scared the snake would bite my face and it would leave a scar...or the snake would strangle me with its 100% muscles...i only touched a snake once...using my finger..it was actually not as disgusting as i thought...

a good talk with the shop owner?

2009-01-20T17:56:00.000-08:00

my sis took this pic...haha can see her forehead... OK so i woke up this morning..(3am) to secretly play the laptop.hehe..and aisyah gave me this text about this story that made her cry...so after playing my daily dosage of early laptop usage...i texted her back(3.41am)...so this was the whole text dialogue

Aisyah:(11.33pm) sry for late reply. they were soldiers. 1 got brain tumor....(and the storyline goes..)
hafiiz:(3.42am)[i commented on the story... ]
aisyah:(4.01am)are you using your laptop secretly again?haha
hafiiz:(4.01am)ya but i off. And i expect you to reply that message like at 12pm or later...
aisyah:(4.04am) my hp is on my fore headwhen i slept

THEN WE SLEPT

so today i had to go to the market buy some groceries...so at the last shop....i asked for tahu and the owner asked me...well maybe i should do another dialogue

owner:tak kerja hari ini?

me: sekolah?

owner: aah(as in ya)...tak sekolah hari ini?

me: tak...... sedang tunggu sekolah..saya baru dapat markah O level..(realise how baku my malay was?)

owner:pergi poly eh?

me: tak JC

owner:oh...bagus(i was smiling when he said that haha)..amek bidang ape?

me: huh? ( in my mind i was ....what the hell was bidang???)

owner: amek bidang ape?

me: umm arts

owner: oh kalau arts jangan main2 sangat.....nak jadi ape bila dah kerja

me: (in my mind...what is jornalist in malay???) nak jadi journalist

owner: oh yang keluar tv tu...baguslah tu...dalam suria eh?

me: taklah..melayu saya tak bagus nak pergi suria?(i realised that i was giving him an attitude of my own so i laughed...)

owner:oh oklah..blaja betul2....

me:ok

THEN I LEFT FOR HOME

so you know the story aisyah told me about in the text...(above)...omg it was so sad...why does the good person*winks to aisyah* has to die??? and the father has to kacau the part i was enjoying..well aisyah was enjoying....its kinda the mild climax...i watched it more than 2 times....its so touching....

so i also played msn games with ruiling...tic tac toe, reversi.....i lost in both games...well..i knew i would lose so i quit the game..hahaha rui ling was so angry cause she wants an official win...well..i am kinda a soreloser...

new passport

2009-01-19T21:02:00.000-08:00

ok so me and my mum went to lavender to collect out passports....cause we are going to malaysia..on chinese new year....after that we went to ntuc to buy some groceries and we walked around to buy shoes for ourselves...the shoe i liked cost like $5o ....expensive for my mum to buy for me....well i would just have to wear my old shoes to malaysia..

aisyah asked me to model for her tee...some group..graphic..i dunno...but she asked me too...but i'm too scared about the whole thing.if my confidence were there i would have accepted the offer...well that's me...

first time out

2009-01-19T00:09:00.000-08:00

ok so me, suzz and xi wen went to the library and returned some books....and then we went to causeway point to search for xi wen's chinese new year clothes, on our way to woodlands...suzz and xiwen and i were talking about the atikah tagg stuff..well its not a big deal...xi wen was like if atikah role model..then I would be a supermodel...hahaha..

at the causeway mall....she ended up buying a red blouse..well i think it was called a blouse...only 10 dollars...

then we went to causeway point punya library...but nothing...suzz used my card to borrow her books...then my stomach grumpled....well not in that sense...i did wanted to eat...so we went back to yishun...and we went to KFC...i ordered the student meal...and forgot to pay...the guy was like...$4.50 pls....twice...i was like...........whoops!!! haha...

the i had to buy my mum's groceries...

Alone with my mum

2009-01-18T19:14:00.001-08:00

ok i heard this song from ellen this morning and i'm in love with this song...it maybe a modern song but it has an old twist to it...

today me and my mum are alone at home cause my bro is gonna come back home at 5.30pm...the school going china town....my ister go to camp..earn some money..3 days..

me xi wen and suzz planning to go library...return books...lucky my mum says ok .

she going to hang out with her makcik friends...so pics are awaiting....

fever...i'm on fire

2009-01-17T04:50:00.000-08:00

ok so at my previous posts i did state that i went to cold storage with is literally the temperature if its name...COLD!!!....now i have a fever a bad nose block and a sore throat...i'm like wearing this stick on thing on my forehead...its freaking cold...

i cannot go to alex birthday party...my mum won't allow me...i need to stop here cause my fingers are painful...typing

regret..i knew it would come to haunt me

2009-01-16T05:36:00.000-08:00

ok so...as you have read my tagbox...veron claims that going to PJC is very convenient and i was...oh my gosh...she should have told me before...now i have to regret my doings...i'm not blaming her or anything..its just that i am angry at my self for not following my gut feeling...
and then bei er said that YJC has a high rate of students being retain, and i was more regretful of my choices.

I have to so work extra hard so that i don't get retained....especially since I'm taking the most risk-iest subject combination just because the subjects can help me in my career.

i feel so demoralised now...i do not want to be one of the lots who get retained.....

2009-01-16T00:50:00.000-08:00

ok today suzz ajak me to go library so i said yes but must after sembahyang first... so after praying i walked all the way to the library and of course there will be some minah from sec 1 who will be laughing at my baju kurung....SO WHAT i'm religious and there is nothing to be embarrass about....

so over there at the fiction corner i saw suzz and xi wen....then salwah came... after that we went to the food court and eat...well they eat i have no $...but salwah belanja me drink...i must so remember to pay her back...

then we went to cold storage...it was so cold..i was shivering......then my sis called me to ask what time i am going home...meaning i have to go home...so i left while they went to popular

back into a dilemma

2009-01-13T19:32:00.001-08:00

ok so pioneer is now out of the 1st choice because i have looked at the route to pioneer..its pretty long...although it takes 8 mins from the nearest bus stop to PJC....so in total i will take 1 hr from home to PJC...not going to happen..i need time to revise and 1 hr wasted on travelling...nu-uh .

so i called chin won who is going to YJC and she said ruiling jiamin all going to YJC...well i dun care about company..i came to this school not knowing anyone and was a loner for about 2 weeks....i know how to handle it...distance really matters to me...i want to go home fast every day....so YJC is my choice..Arts...then YJCscience.....then Poly creative writing....then pioneer...then poly media and communication...then i dunno...

dilemma..

2009-01-13T00:31:00.000-08:00

I COULD BECOME THIS ONE DAY.....I WANT TO BECOME THIS IN THE FUTURE... So i found out that i can go to diploma in mass communications...but then i decided, after long hours of thinking i have decided that i would go to JC....then go to UNiversity and take degree in mass com........

wait....not finished yet...i need to choose between arts(basically humanities and economics) and science(you know what is in that)here is the problem....i want to go and become a journalist/reporter/news anchor...but i am good at science and math....so this is the negativity of being an all-rounded student...your interest will collide with your strengths.....and some more if i become a journalist i will not have time with my family...and my family needs me cause i am not the man of the house.....more over..the pay is not high, i have to support my family..

so i was thinking that maybe its time that i should give up in my dreams....but asyiqin told me not to give up in my dreams, jiajin did the same...and it enlightened me in a way that i want to pursue my dream career....

so this is my plan

go to pioneer JC
get into arts course....general paper, project work, malay(urgh), geography, economics, literature( i need help), and lastly my H1 subject i need to pick one from the science course...that is chemistry/ math but my aunt says that chemistry has more career options.but i am scared because you need to pass your H1...and i have the better possibility of passing math than science...but i think i can handle chem...
go to university ntu is possible..get a degree...maybe go for bachelor...and become a journalist.....NS must go lah...

pioneer???

2009-01-12T02:21:00.001-08:00

okay so we've gotten out results...and i'm not satisfied with mine..i know some of you are like....you get 15 also not happy..but i usually...constantly get 12 and i was so assure of myself that i'm going to anderson JC but...nope..so maybe i'm going to pioneer JC with a cut-off point of 16...i read their achievements in A lvl and i'm impressed...so that is my current choice...

poly is out of the Qn...i was aiming for mass com but the requirement is B3 and i got a B4....so...i need to get a 10...which did not happen...

is there any chance for some of my friends to appear in pioneer JC? i dun think so...only a handful wants to go to JC...urgh...new friends there??i hope there are malay boys for me to make friends with...i did not go too well mixing with malay boys in YSS...so this is my second chance....and maybe they will ask me to join theie group!! and we can be best of friends...haha why am i planning too far?hahaha..

mustafa centre

2009-01-10T22:59:00.000-08:00

we went to mustafa centre but we are not allowed to use a camere but we secretly did it..haha TEA is the product here we went to this delicious indian food restaraunt...i ate tosai masalah..the product here is??? food duh

so this lovely lady here is my....mum's mother's sister....

so today we went to mustafa center at like 9am.....i bought a 60s cd..music one....$9.90...cereal...milk..and many more

i saw a lot of english ppl...every where i turned i at least see a couple...

truthfully i'm trembling as i'm typing this post...well you all know what day it is tomorrow...brace yourself ppl..i'm trying so hard to not think about it...my heart is beating faster and a handphone's vibration....well not to that extend...

urgh 2 more days to my new life

2009-01-10T07:18:00.000-08:00

ok people i did not know i was bald....my sis told me that ever since my brother was born...he looked better bald than me...hence i got a fringe.... this was during hari raya haji....

this was when we were spring cleaning my sis room...the thing i was wearing was the national day outfit my sis wore at the choir....the changing color one...

well...its 2 more days to the results...i did want to think about it...just pray...everytime i thing about it...MOVING ON....

just now...9pm, we and my aunt went eating REPHRASE: the whole family went to eat outside at changi stuff...and i ate nasi ayam black pepper....and the place there was filthy...eww...i was such in a bad mood...but no attitude shown..and after that when we were leaving this band was playing their music at a basketball court and they were pretty good i must say..for a person who hates modern song...

i was eating this roasted chestnuts the ones you see ppl roast in a big metal basin with coffee beans cooked to enhance the flavour at northpoint....its just like someone selling satay but its roasted in a basin...i hope you guys know...cause i dunno what else is there to explain...ANYWAYS...it was such a dissappointment cause usually when they were cooking the smell is so strong..but when i ate it..it was bland...tawah...eww

raw talent????

2009-01-09T07:26:00.000-08:00

look at my brother...aww so cute....and i did not have the nicest teeth back then..until now..cause i was more vainer..hehe..you see the fountain at the background??my dad made it..out of cement!!!

posing beside the jalan raya..haha everyone on the road must have seen us
it was raining and my pants were wet and falling of me....but we took a shot...STAY FIERCE ppl

SO I AM IN A MOOD OF ROCK...OLD ROCK.....INSPIRED BY SOME GUY*WINKS TO AISYAH* hint...library, masjid.....haha
well we went to my mum's garden so that we can chat with her friends...anyways we got there by bikes..i had to tumpang my mum's while my sis ride her own....you dunno how painful it is..especially with this long legs..i had to bend more...while my other leg hangs as it hits the floor or grasses

well anyways when we got there..no one was there...so my mum decided that we would cycle all the way to khatib bongsu...urgh another few minutes straining my legs...luckily it was windy..enjoy the moment b4 the pain came back...

there, i cycled...ohoh did you know yesterday i started cycling...and no falls.??? i also dunno how come i was able to cycle.......hmm..and today i was cycling so fast..i had to stop because my paddling was slower than the speed of the wheel...

2009-01-08T23:21:00.000-08:00

going to dahrul ihsan...me in my formal clothing... this was when we stayed overnight at our fav grandma's house and we had no clothed so my aunt gave us some of her clothes..

at my mum's garden... i'm actually selling the "terung" brinjal...in this pic...

well there are some technical difficulties about my blogskin...some are not able to see my skin....it happened to me last night...there's this photobucket ad that covered the whole skin....

well i will add on to this post when something happens to me in my life..

new skin

2009-01-07T19:53:00.000-08:00

Ok people..this is my new skin..i faced so many difficulties doing it..all of my fav choices were of no use...cause one of it made my pics all lighter...

well yesterday a moth came into our house...i was so scared i emmediately took the spray but my mum told me not to kill it...so we just continued doing our work and it flew to my room!!

i was like..." that's it" but my mum's voice circled in my mind..." hafiiz jangan hafiiz, dia tak kacau awak, awak jangan kacau dia"

but then my mum told me to spray in the room so that it will drive the moth out of the room..my room..but it didn't ...the spray made the moth weak and thus cannot get out of my room..

luckily it dropped on the floor and my mum told me to give her a broom and a dustban..she scooped it and release it outside...FREE!!! yay mums....without her that insect would have died...maybe it came into my house to commit suiside cos they know about me..A.K.A "killing-insect"

relive the moment

2009-01-06T22:11:00.000-08:00

I found pics of us when we were young and i want to show y'all...so i scanned it

this i was a pic at the zoo and i didn't want to go near the animal ( chimpanzee if you guys dunno)
i really have the glow when i was young..

that chimp was digging his nose....

this was when my bro was a little baby and i looked like a rabbit...aisyah said that she once looked like a monkey ..

from a rabbit i have turned to a graceful giraffe....and my head is seriously big that time....

i was actually not wearing anything at the bottom my dad wanted to take a photo and my bro was crying cause he thought that my dad was going to be absorbed by the camera...haha...and my hair is soo soft but once i reached puberty my hair turned wavy well it happens to any other boys....

powder was really the "IN" thing last time...haha my face was sooo white...haha

MOE sucks...

2009-01-06T08:10:00.000-08:00

ok so you know how i use the com at like midnight??

well when all were asleep and when i was done playing, i wanted to go in my room and sleep. BUT THE DOOR...MY DOOR WAS LOCKED!!!!!

i realised that my lock was broken and it was to be opened from the inside...so i knocked and turned the knob to make a sound but no answer..

i could have heard that if i were asleep inside..

am i the only one that wakes up in the middle of the night awaken by the creaking of the door, or the chirping of some damn bird that flies at night...or izzit a bat...

so i went back online to talk about it to elf..then i went to sleep in my sis room where there were no fan...luckily the air was cool outside and i opened the windows...

so this is for aisyah....:

girl...... you think i think that you know all of my life...well you only know 1/3 of it..its just that the other is too dark for me to tell

the other ppl only knows a pinch about me...but i'll tell you one day..when i'm brave enough...( well it was brave for me to even tell you about me secret) HAHA...

now this is for y'all:

the moe sucks...alex told me that the moe will confirm the o lvl results like 2 to 4 days before the date of releasement on tv...like press...and i was like...WHEN WAS THAT???

this are the dates it was rumoured to be 9th, 12th, 21th and 16th.....ppl i have enough if this nonsense i am already scared of the result and they have to make it difficult for us......

2009-01-04T17:21:00.000-08:00

this was taken under the water fall thingy....the water was so fast and hard...

this was when we went to dahrul ihsan to fill up some form or take some money

this was after i went to swimming complex.and we saw a playground and we posed lah

so today my mum and my sis went to my bro's school to buy his books but i didn't want to follow cause i felt so tired cos of the cold i had yesterday...my mum was so furious cos she knew i would play the laptop...so she locked the cupboard with a lock.....i of course was so angry....

my mum think i went to DnT lessons for nothing....hinges and locks are so similar in DnT...i took a screwdriver and a spanner...and open the screws and played the laptop(which is what i'm doing now) haha......naughty but i have to do it...i am doing all the house hold chores at least let me play the laptop.......

swimming time...

2009-01-01T23:32:00.001-08:00

pic time!!!!!

this was after we took the ride...as you can see my face was well.you can say excited about the ride...other than ugliness

this is right in front of the playground....

this was inder the water umbrella...

this pic was inspired by an antm pic where they were floating on water like water nymphs...i thinks it was a success

this was a painful shot cause the water was pouring hard on me...you see my hand on my zip on my chest it was because the water was so fast and strong that at a point of time my zip was half open and i was in shock!!!!!

so we went to a swiming i duno where and i had to either wear a swimsuit or be half naked...the answer is quite obvious...but there was one problem...i had to hide my PP * you know what* * winks to aisyah***** i did something to hide it...hey i am conservative about my body....

we took like 20 same rides and we made friends with the security in charge of the slides/rides...

my desired hairstyle

2008-12-23T03:44:00.000-08:00

this is a mod hairstyle a modern one....keep the fringe long and the rest short like mine but i need to keep my fringe long

i tried doing this hairstyle but my hair is wavy..they did say i need to use styling gel and a blowdryer.

this is actually the same as the first one but more glossy and conservative not too rock but its so nice...i want it...

east coast modelling bloopers

2008-12-22T00:48:00.000-08:00

SO NOT ALL PICS I TOOK WERE GREAT HERE ARE SOME OF THE WORST PICS TAKEN .....

no...1 this was suppose to be a great shot but the waves totally pushed me and i didn't want the salt water to enter my eyes so i squinted...a lot...resulting to major disgust of the face

no...2 i want to do a wave with the sweep of my hands.....i just made the pic worst by blurring me and my sis

no....3 i was so having my angry opse but the waves pushed me and my bro....ppl the waves were really strong...trust me....look at my big mouth...i look like i'm smiling and terrified..haha

no...4 so this one is actually ok we just look funny in it not modelly...

no....5 THIS IS THE WORST...OF ALL I WANTED TO RAISE MY LEG LIKE THE PIC NO. 5 OF THE BEST ONES AT MY PREVIOUS POST ( EAST COAST PARK).BUT THE WAVES PUSHED ME...I LOOK LIKE A DOG PEEING...URGH!!!

SO recently my family have been making kites .....it really nice just need some wind to blow it DUH....

i cut my hair....short all over the sides...layered my top....and left my locks long....but my locks is really fluffy when dry....gel time!!!!

merry christmas

2008-12-20T01:49:00.000-08:00

so christmas is coming...i love this song its by the jackson 5. when michael jackson was young. he is converting to muslim i was so happy for him...

ok christmas...chrismas... children had to be good or else santa clause AKA parents...

they have to sleep first b4 their parents are caught being santa clause.cute

if i were to sit on santa now...... i would ask

1) i want to score for my o lvls..(very important)

2) i want a new look eg. hairstyle, clothing stuff like that

3) i want to lose my cheek fats...do bare with my anorexity if there is such word...it sounded nice that mattered most

4) i want to speak slang...not fake but real

so anyways... i haven't been blogging cause nothing happened to me...how typical...

well to all my christian friends have a merry christmas while i listen to the lovely songs and movies......

so i'm learning how to know soccer or izzit football what is the diff anyways...so i have been asking QNs from muhaimin...like offsides..(yes laugh all you want i dunno what an offside meant...)

science

2008-12-11T02:39:00.000-08:00

well to day i went to the library with _____ and we borrowed a lot of books...economists racism a couple of romance novels....

this is an experiment that i did....

1) some old coins
2)baking soda(sodium bicarbonate)
3)water

mix them up
leave them for a few days and the solution turns blue...(AMAZING)

deduction: copper 2+ ions.....something in the baking soda is more reactive than the copper coins that it displace it...i dunno my chem is a little rusty....but isn't the coins alloy or something....maybe nickel.....

so my final hunch is that NaHCO3 when reacts with water leaving Na+ and HCO3-....
Also, a different amount of water sticks to the bicarbonate ion. so the Na+ will displace the copper atoms(or some other metel atoms that gives blue ions) from the coins leaving those blue ions............done..

friday...hari raya coming

2008-12-05T00:21:00.000-08:00

this is whoopi Goldberg my all-time fav actress......

well today is Friday...Monday is hari raya and i will be wearing my baju kurung(3 years old) that i have worn for 3 hari rayas consecutively....we are going to 1 house only maybe sleep at my fav grandmothers house...

so today me and my bro went to the mosque as usual.....me wearing my hari raya clothes and we always come early and after that we bought slurpee 2 in fact...but 1 was already in liquid form.came back watched survivor.....its very boring actually today...i dunno what to do tonight...and i dunno what i'm waiting for...

east coast park

2008-12-02T16:03:00.001-08:00

this is us in the tent b4 we went inti the water

THIS IS THE TOP 5 PICS YAKEN BY MY SIS...OF MUAH....NO PARTICULAR ORDER OF RANKING...

NO......5 WE HAD TO KEPT POSING WHILE MY SIS FINDS A GOOD SHOT WHERE THE WAVE WOULD COME IN...

NO......4 PPL WERE LOOKING BUT I DID WHAT I HAD TO DO

NO.....3 I LOVE THIS ONE.....

NO......2 THIS WAS WHEN WE WERE IN THE water...I POSED A LITTLE

NO...1 TRUTHFULLY THIS DOES NOT DESERVE TO BE IN NO...1 CAUSE I LOOKED LIKE I JUST WOKE UP..SCRATCHING MY HEAD....LETS JUST THINK POSUTIVE...I LOVE IT

THIS WAS WHEN WE WERE TRAPPED IN THE TENT WHILE IT WAS RAINING.....urgh

well yesterday we went to east coast park....we took a bus there...very long ride..i almost lost my temper but i didn't.so when we reached there we set up the tent and changed but i have all my outfit inside my clothes already..of course i did not wear shirtless....

so we went into the water and took lots of pics....and we made sandcastles with a plastic cup....and since the waves kept bringing them down ...we decided to build a barrier...me and me sis build a barrier while my bro dug up a trench along the sandcastle as the first defend.....but since we were all dying for water(to swim in) we stopped but it did hold up to 5 waves....until the big one crashed the whole thing down

so when we need to change the shower room was filled with mats and chinese boys...tall ones....and there is 1 cubicle left for us.....so we decided to bath and change and take our wuduk in the same cubicle....to make my day...the lock wasn't working.....wo this is the time for a brother bond to take place...i will bath first...but i asked my bro to stand facing the door close his eyes and keep the door shut....when its his turn he will bath and i will close my eyes and keep the door shut...

later when we were in the tent...it rained...heavily....and owrst of all the tent is leaking...so we were trapped in there for more than 30 mins...using towels to wipe all the water and drain it outside....the % of oxygen was also getting lesser and it was harder to breath...so i used the newspaper and kept the ventilation going...there were 5 ppl in the tent....

bad news

2008-12-01T00:37:00.001-08:00

maybe one day i would be on the runway....not permanently maybe for charity?i dunno something that comes up once a year...

well guys today we went to sheng siong but we pronounce it as singsong...

and we decided to go to the zoo....i was alright with that cause we can take pic there with the animals...

just when i was so excited going...my aunt wanted to go to east coast part...the beach there....me and my bro were like "no way!!" but my mum hated me for doing that...complaining...well she will hate me if my true colours were out..which it wont' of course......well at least i could take some pics there...its jst that...what am i going to wear? its been a long time since i went to the beach..

we are going out in the morn and we are going back like 3pm....i hope it earlier...i hate going out...I'M A MOUNTAIN TORTOISE they would call me......well if they don like it then just go..if i don wanna go the leave me alone....but i'm not brought to this world to do that!! oh no...i'm just going to go with the flow and just pretend to have fun....taking pic is always fun...that should help..

we are going to pray in the tent...urgh how not class is that..i know i'm fussy about things but i need to release myself...ppl always take advantage of me every time cause i act vulnerable and all...well as i vent my anger by taking some pic...i shall say toodles!!!

ANYWAY I HAVE A MOBILE NOW...WHICH WAS MY DAD'S PASSED DOWN TO MY SIS...PASSED DOWN TO MY MUM...PASSED DOWN TO ME!...PRETTY LONG...ANYWAY..ITS 93922676

sping cleaning

2008-11-29T23:18:00.000-08:00

this is what i want to be.....garrett forbes

this is the inspired pants...bell bottoms

well this morning we had to clean up our room...well i am confessing that my room is pretty messy but its because of my brother....he does not clean up his bed i have to either shout at him or clean it up for him....well i am very tired .....my mum is going to sew me a pants inspired my bell-bottoms(70's fashion is really quite of a demand now)

i either want to be

1)lawyer/paralegal(me and aisyah!!!!weee)

2)journalist/writer

3)simply a model

when is my mum gonna get me a part time job???? part time receptionist...well actually she has to ask her boss which she claimed she is a nice person

so i'm just praying

i know she is busy and its wrong for me to not ask myself but my self confidence is not up to standard

bad mood

2008-11-28T05:22:00.000-08:00

well i have no pics cause they are all in the laptop
anyway i took an afternoon nap and after that i was indulge in the bad moodness.i did not talk and i was reading all the way.i shut up for more than 2 hrs abd believe me, that's long cause usually the maximum i shut up is like 15 mins

Rules;
1. Each tagged blogger must start off with 10 weird things/ habits/ little known facts about themselves.
2. At the end, the tagged has to tag 10 other bloggers.
3.No tag back

well shall we begin, i got tagged by aisyah but i do not understand rule number 3, what the heck

my 10 weird things/habits/little known facts

i eat a lot of sweets
i get uncomfortable under artificial light cause i need natural lightings
i am in love with very old songs
i see myself as a giraffe
i hate insects
i only have bought 2 CDs in my entire life(whitney houston and someother black woman)
i'm anorexic
i have no ass
i love to model
i have a deep dark secret hehe

My name;

A; You like to drink.

B; You like people.

C; You are really silly.

D; You like to eat.

F; You are dead sexy.

G; You never let people tell you what to do.

H; You have good personality and good looks.

I; Easy to be with

.J; People adore you.

K; You are wild and crazy.

L; Poeple loves you.

M; Best kisser, period.

N; Best BF/ GF anyone could ever ask for.

O; Easy to fall in love with.

P; Popular.Q; Tom Boy.

R; Loyal to loved ones.

S; Crazy.

T; Awesome kisses(?)

U; Chill and laidback.

V; Awesome in bed.

W; Broad minded.

X; Sports junkie.

Y; Best BF/ GF anyone could ever ask for.

Z; Aways ready

so this is muah

H; You have good personality and good looks.

A; You like to drink.

F; You are dead sexy.

I; Easy to be with.

Z; Aways ready

is this a fluke?? my "H"the good looks part is...i dunno what to say haiz so fake

the "A" is believable i love to drink.....coffee tea and cordial

the "F" i am dead sexy WHAT!!!!!!! its true if "F" would be ppl would be dead if they look at you

i have 2 "I"s easy to be with...i can take that yeah

and "Z" so-so

well i have no 10 ppl to tag to cause all of them have been tagged my aisyah salwah and others so might as well leave it blank :)

2008-11-26T22:20:00.000-08:00

i look like a sultan hehe

but before that i was figuring out the fold to make it like that above

sec 1 photo, i did nothing, just standing there with one broken leg, now i'm like doing all those kinds of poses hehe
well today we went to mustafa center at 9am it was tiring but my mum bought me a classy 120cm cloth to make me a pant, the pattern is nice but i told me mum to make the ass smaller considering my unproportionate size.we bought some CDs

my lefs are tired now......

anyone???

2008-11-25T01:52:00.000-08:00

i miss my dad

right under my block we were suppose to go northpoint

this was during the prelims period i was tired of studying so my sis took a pic of us....we look like the 2 -headed diva

this was nearing of the o lvls i was studying and was bored

well its really hard for me during the first 2 days of my cleanse diet cause you're not in control of your life you mum wants you to eat this and you are expected to eat that. and we not have tyhe money to buy the wholemeal bread and stuff making it hard for me, which is why i am alleviating the diet rules: no junk food that's all.

so today we had to go the DAHRUL IHSAN ORPHANAGE for some interview...urgh if my dad were alive he would bring us to holiday or something...haiz. we came back home at 2pm and now i'm just waiting for something to happen.

i'm bored:

hi there i'm hafiiz and i'm 16

i have a deep dark secret that i have yet to tell all of you

i love to model and write which has nothing to do with my education.

i frail in the presence of artificial light meaning i need sunlight or just darkness.(what's wrong with me?mutant?plant?)

i get jealous easily

i vent my anger by keeping quiet, i don't just show my anger, i keep it inside making me feeling painful all the time.

i love modelling but i have no sense of fashion at all.

i want to be a journalist but it does not have a high pay.

a small reunion

2008-11-23T04:08:00.000-08:00

i must say this is the best siblings pic i have ever seen in my entire life...if only my pimple was out of the picture

changi airport, modelling in front so many people but a model has to do what a model has to do

i'm still in love with this picture, thx to still shot camera just exclude the pilow would be great

i love this too

this is the best pose, well not the best but i love what my sis did to it, thx to the camera that is able to take still shots of me jumping....

well tomm is the big day for me, the 21 days cleanse diet, yong xiang has joined no one else?

anyway i "computer-ly" bumped into one of my closest friends in primary school.brought back so many fond memories, funny ones in fact. i was the most talkative boy in class, well not was, is.....i was laughing all the way just because of this humorous girl named amreet kaur..funny girl..

such a small world...

it was so fun doing all the projects...now its just exercise books and nothing more, last time there were basket weaving, zoologist projects.....oh wells

21 days cleanse diet

2008-11-21T17:47:00.000-08:00

OK this is the worst pic i have ever taken...period.....look at my eyes...if i had smiled with my eyes that tissue on my head would make it work....but nvm...

i looked like i wore some eye shadow

rabbit ears and our sibling group is called the vandellas....3 years already...we sing in a synchronized way...

well as you have all read i am beginning my 21 days cleanse diet on monday...i suggest trying a 21-day cleanse as a way to jump-start an inner makeover. so why not give it a try..

the plan is to eliminate coffee..(caffeine), sugar, crackers, chocolate(not dark chocolate they are actually good for you), glutten(white rice bad for you but wholemeal bread is good for you), no cordials, no deep fried stuff(my french fries), no eggs, and that's it.....

I thought it meant not allowing yourself to eat emotionally and filling the void of anxiety with food, as I've struggled with for years(some of you might know....well one of you hehe). I thought it meant taking your time, making healthy choices and chewing slowly—being conscious of every bite and not scarfing down a meal and then thinking about the next one.

Don't know if I'm going to feel better or worse, but I'm willing to try to see if my body at least feels differently.so i'm going to start on monday...but mom's home cook food is an exception because i have to eat its just the post meals that i'm talking about...between breakfast and lunch. lunch and dinner and supper......so if anyone wants to join me come aboard....

its not as if you have to stop all...that is impossible...you have to minimize it that is the key if you try to stop you will go crazy and will go back to square 1 so take it slowly.....

hairdresser???

2008-11-20T07:03:00.000-08:00

i got inspired by this shot
so i did my sis hair...with 2 pins...how did i do????but she just need to pose better

this is a bit of a failure..cause it kinda topples down a little

take me or leave me

2008-11-19T18:47:00.001-08:00

i like this song its like my story...something like my story but the song is great

today is psle results

2008-11-19T17:35:00.000-08:00

today my bro is getting his psle results even I'm scared for him.his maths is very weak.

i don want him to go to normal academic.

i have spiked my hair but I'm not ready to exposed them to the public....

I'm not ready yet.

I'm playing Pokemon emulator on the computer...its like playing a PSP on the computer...its really fun but its hard to defeat the Elite 4 cause its all lvl 60+ and mine the average is around 48.

i will list all my Pokemon

1)octillery

2)noctowl

3)roserade

4)infernape

5)dialga

6)luxray

you can call me childish but i am having fun on the computer.hehe

its like the new version who wouldn't play it???(don't answer back!)

anyways you know the advertisement of "don forget your lyrics" the host is gurmit Singh !!!!

i'm like shocked...i was anticipating adrian pang..gurmit is so plastic very fake the only funny act he does is only in phua chu kang and that is only because of the script...i hate the screaming when he is in the show to stir up excitement for eg."singapore!!!!......are you ready!!!!"

and i'm like closing my ears each time he does that.....the advertisement when he is promoting the show...he sound so fake and i'm so angry for the media to even telecast it on tv....

what else is there to complain...now its the time for me to release myself....

doing what i enjoy

2008-11-18T05:40:00.000-08:00

well guys today i went to the syariah court...very strict in security...don't ever work under that sector...

we took a lot of pictures which i have not uploaded yet...we kept taking pics till our bus left..and we did not realise it...damn another 15 mins of waiting

so i have been sketching clothes...writing..playing computer...i will one day scan the sketches and post it up...

so i broke my back after dancing...(yes i dance..african dance) it has loads of jumping and wide movements...don't laugh at me ok...this is the consequence of no training..3 days of intense pain you know

finish exams.....now what???

2008-11-14T06:08:00.000-08:00

this is at the playground right outside my house i did this pose inspired by an ANTM picture...

i played badminton...and my sis took a picture...i lost...duh
this is taken in pitch black in my room....my bro took a pic with a flash...so he does not know what i'm posing cause its so dark....and this is a result

this too i kinda tipped to my right with my "cloth" that's my only accessory urgh

well I'm now free but now what?

I'm bored ...its just me and my computer....

just found out that I'm suffering from anorexia bulimia...i eat tissue paper since i was 13...how serious was that....

thinking of part time job but i cannot do cashier cause I'm no good in money or handling 'em ...i just don't want to grow fat...i got a new hairstyle...really cool...i love it...my mum layered my hair so it can be spiked up...waiting for tommorrow....

relieved

2008-11-05T00:41:00.000-08:00

this is my worst pic yet......i look like a kampong boy with the hair..all down

the slimethingy my bro used stinks but it created a good prop for the pic..so does my stupid head gear.....-_-..just took it from the computer.

going against the sunlight!!!!!

i LOVE my pose here....its so mysterious....

well my fwens

we are finishing our exams...malay was kinda a disaster.i though membimbing was

menjaga-_-
my paper 2 was kinda okay for me i did letter cause i did not know what to do for my dialog.

my bina ayat was also a disaster.....i thought tempangan was like a slap or something strict how silly is that....well the least i could get is c5.

the kefahaman was hard too many proving.....like maths haha

well i am planning to have a job with chin won or any of you if there is vacancy and if the job is fun.

modelling???haha

a song....

I pose..

Why should I feel discouraged

Why should the shadows come

Why should my heart fell lonely

And long for life and home

I pose because I'm happy

I pose because I'm free

my life is on the ferry

cause i know i'm going to be free

i don't care what people say

but how am i suppose to accept it?

it is killing me softly with what they say

Telling my whole life with their words

I pose because I'm happy

I pose because I'm free

my life is on the ferry

cause i know i'm going to be free

finish....this is my best song composed although short...i really felt it

some thing happened....while i was chatting with yong xiang:

YEY OBAMA WON=YONG XIANG

MY BLOG UPDATED=HAFIIZ

yey obama won... says:... so have u started ur job hunting??

my blog updated..... says:waiting for chin won

my blog updated..... says:i already got an application form from the modelling agency

yey obama won... says:oh... why dun u jus look for urself??

my blog updated..... says:they say they will call me

yey obama won... says:WOAH!!! REALLY

my blog updated..... says:ya

my blog updated..... says:around a week ago

my blog updated..... says:its gonna be in some informal magazine

yey obama won... says:COOL... so did u send any photo to let them see

my blog updated..... says:ya some of the less pimply ones

yey obama won... says: ...

my blog updated..... says:I'M JUST JOKING LAH..GOTCHA

my blog updated..... says:how impossible for me to get that job

my blog updated..... says:silly billy nilly

yey obama won... says:WAT... how could you... u tricked ME

my blog updated..... says:i'm like laughing

my blog updated..... says:haha

yey obama won... says:...

yey obama won... says:i no u can be a calefare

my blog updated..... says:haha

yey obama won... says:so talented in acting

graduation pics

2008-10-14T19:14:00.000-07:00

CRITICS.....CRITICS....CRITICS......CRITICS... our last shot..so no critics for this one.....i like my pose though

vivian was like.."hafiiz...like that ok...nice" and salwah is like looking at something..it was bright though...so the raise of the hands of me and salwah...made sense.yay...looks like lin is the star of this shot....star of this shot:azlin

i guess this was accidental...but i was so ready..haha
star of this shot:me

this was suppose to be a lucious lips shot...

azlin::::::like the thick lips....the the must have hands on the hips
hafiiz:::::i did my lips...not so huge...i did the diaccentuating of nose...leant that from tyra...cause my nose is huge...
syiq:::is not following the point of the shot...so no critics
stars of this shot: me and lyn

this was suppose to be aadila's shot ONLY.....but me and syiq kepoh...i saw the table and put my leg on 'em...

atikah::::was worrying about her skirt...but it turned out ok for her..

syiq:nice smile

lin:i believe she was stretching her leg...i can't see well..its kinda blur

hafiiz:::love the stretch of the leg...i'm showing off my legs...with my hands

star of this shot: i think me

no critics.....

star of this shot:lyn

Azlin::::::i love the smooch of the lips.....with the hand on her head....love the broken doll leg...

syiq::::::: i love the broken legs...nice soft depressing look...good job with the extension of neck

hafiiz:::::::why didn't i extend my neck....i look like a frog....a cool frog???
star of this shot:syiq!!!!surprising
salwah::::::love the "what-the-hell-are-you-looking-at" look....nice bent

azlin:::::::::simple but strong

hafiiz::::::love the frown....with the stretch of the leg..love that

star of this shot:salwah yay

critics...not available...aisyah is soooo ccooll lyn>;;;;;nive gangtrous look and pose

hafiiz:::::love the pull of the shirt and the hand on the head

star of this shot:hafiiz

lovely profile of me and lyn and atikah

star of this shot: me

tally:

1st:hafiiz with 5

2nd:azlin:with 3

3rd:salwah and syiq with 1

but all of us can be supermodel

FANTASTIC 3

2008-10-11T04:56:00.000-07:00

THE METALLIC BEING:
1)STRENGHT OF TITANIUM
2)FUN AND LOVING.
FLASH:
1)SPEED OF SOUND
2)WILD PERSONALITY

STORM:

1)ABILITY TO MANUPILATE THE WEATHER

2)DESTRUCTIVE POWERS, BUT CAN BE BENEFICIAL.(HEHE)

MY SIS DID ALL THIS THX

graduation......boo hoo..

2008-10-10T07:49:00.000-07:00

this is on our way to masjid hang jebat.....we sat on the road....before it was dark....and when it was dark we baca ayat kursi the whole way through....so scary...
as an environmentalist....i should do my part to" hug a tree" people were looking at the road..but SO WHAT

in the masjid....i sat with the imam......and my mu took a pic....the imam was eating watermelon anyway
this is another photo....we looked back
the stones...mine is the white flops with blue strap
this is the background of the railway....look like malaysia....i decided to barge into the picture..as if we do not know where we were going...
i like this pic...very suttle...i like the light above..shining through...nice job sis...

i have a lot more of the jumping but i don't want you to get bored....so i picked one...and this is today

today is graduation day....i will miss all of you especially

the malay girls...

the chinese girls

the malay boys

the foreigners

after the whole thing we took pictures with the malay girls....posed like models...so fun..i didn't care what people think...we just posed like there was no tomorrow

those pic will be uploaded as soon as i get it...

muhaimin did great in presenting my speech...i couldn't have done better in talking...i hate my voice.....but anyways....

manna and weiling cried.....how touching...got a little tear in my eye.....

posing like a model????CAN??

2008-10-06T00:16:00.000-07:00

ZERO GRAVITY WITH OUR NEW CAMERA...i don't like this face though...i can't control my face well...but still like it..

i'm like a witch...my motive..used the pillow as my head gear....and the broom......i'm actually flying while sitting on my broom.....

this i love.....it looked so effortless....and it does looked like i'm a float....i controlled my face...and this is something i'm proud of......i didn't go like "AHHHHH"in my face...its very controlled....yay

this was a picture before i got hold of my broom...my face is still controlled love it

this is like a cool shot and my bro's face is a good example of how its not suppose to be like.....

this is another proudest moments....my sis took all the pictures...she told me i looked like an evil bird or a dragon...and i looked elegant.....just that my nose is a little big....

today...i came to school..and mr NG was catching all those who wore coloured socks...i just sped through ....haha

then mr goh came to our class talking about education...while most of the students were doing their english....like who wanna listen....

Molester???

2008-10-02T03:45:00.001-07:00

HARI RAYA PHOTOS!!!!!!!!!

the triosss look at my bro...chubs...

the girls................my mum and my sis...and me at the egde of the ohoto...but too bad my bro can't be seen
WE DIDN'T FORGET ABOUT YOU ABAH......and no disgusting poses from me for this one..i like that smirk of mine......
this is the guys.....my bro picked this layout ...like the cinderella
there was like no space for me so i posed behind

well today.....was horrible...i got "molested" by some indian fellow.....kinda....i was like sitting in the bus...and the indian guy sat beside me.....he was like sitting with his leg wide open and it was like hitting me...his elbow was also hitting me quite a lot of times.....he was also looking at my direction a lot of times but this is not reliable because my periphery view of my eyes is not well........anyway..when i got up...he touched my ass....his PAW....but maybe he just wants me to go out like what the students in our school would do....maybe it...evolution...touching of asses is the new greeting...hahaha

i told aisyah and she was like EWW.... but she told me that it is good that i am known to have a butt...she also said that he must have seen my ass as an illusion as i claimed that my ass is only air....and i said that when he touched it ...he must have thought..."eh where's the butt?"...and aisyah was like cracking up...i was lauging like hell too.well...lets just forget it.....

pre raya syndrome...

2008-09-30T05:57:00.000-07:00

i'm in the background....... group poses....................

fierce......................
i hate my face in this..................

well happy pre raya........but i'm not celebrating though......

jiajin ate the WANG WANG which is also contaminated....from china...no offence to those who were offended.....i told her after she said that she ate a lot one time.....and i was like..."NO WONDER".......she was like no wonder what????well to clear all doubts...JIAJIN,!!!!its just a metaphorical meaning....like...its contaminated..and it may have some side effects...but it does not mean that it is contaminated.....hahaha

well.......i want to apologize everyone i have irritated or hurt emotionally.....seriously.....SORRY.....at least i can eat.....

sunday...tomm monday

2008-09-28T08:39:00.001-07:00

this is editorial poses....by one of my favourite male models....he's not the very muscular ones...he's just right......don worry its the make-up that's making the model look thin

posing as we put the pisc into the game............................
a famous male model too....so much better than i am......
look at this....such an ammature model.....

well today is sunday.....i ate turkish meal...turkish kebab..sauce..strong coffee.....played tycoon games

2008-09-26T20:20:00.000-07:00

Life is a cat prowl. I envision slow and careful steps, a calm awareness of what is going on in my neighborhood, and a pace that suits my needs.

Life is a dog walk. I move now with lively interest, with stoppings and goings, encounters with other dogs, trees, and people, always ready to respond to a friendly greeting.

Life is a fox trot. Here is a bouncy-stepped way to dance through life. Find a partner! You can always sit the next one out.

Life is a ghost story.everywhere you go, misery is what you will encounter.every ghost story is a bad ending and every bad ending lies sadness.

it just made my day

2008-09-26T06:42:00.000-07:00

when you feel strong..you don't hold anything back....WHAT'S MY SECRET??...i want to be part of a magazine as a model...hahahahaha SEE THIS ONE....THIS POSE IS WHAT I WOULD NORMALLY DO...AND I THOUGHT ITS ONLY FOR FEMALE MODELS BUT WHEN I SAW THIS ONE...IT REALLY RELIEVES ME THAT MALE MODELS DO POSE LIKE THE WAY I DO..... I WOULD WANT TO BE POSING FOR A CLOTHING LINE.....

I COULD DO THIS POSE....BUT SUCH SHIRTS WOULD ACCENTUATES MY BONES ON MY SHOULDER AND...IN FACT EVERYWHERE....

today it started of bad ...it was raining at my vicinity and i went back up to take my umbrella....but don have..the bus left already...when i came back down the rain stopped...

so coming to school later than usual aisyah was already waiting for me.....and she just said something that just made my day which i'm not going to type here cause maybe you ppl might thing that i'm boasting...or proud....

i have been reading THE ECONOMIST...which is disturbing for some ppl but it is really nice....

i got 38/40 for my chem paper 2 which is a great relieve cause my paper 2 is not done well.....so now i got A2.....alhamdulillah....