Reminiscing

Identifying smiles

7:48 PM | 0 comments

I have a kinda long list of smiles you can do. Practise in front of a mirror and you can find out the different expressions hidden in it. For good or for sacarsm. Everyone of you has to be equipped with this smiles or know about it so that you won't be a culprit of some insult. Well this pictures is like copyright from Tyra DUH. Cause its so action for me to put my own pictures. OK let's begin.

Angry smile: OK this is my top favourite smile , I'm still practising this smile. There's a meaning to it. Its like you have to pretend you like someone...But you really don't!! So you want to smile because you can't be like rude you know, you have to be mature and professional. So that's a raising your eyebrows with a squint like smiling with your eyes but its less open than smiling with your eyes. and you smile ( mouth ) has to be like one side up one side normal. A tilt is what I'm trying to say. And your lips is thinner like you add more tension to it.

The surprise smile: This is like when someone gave you a birthday present and you don't know about it but if you do, you tend to not be surprise and the people who gave it to you intended the gift to be a surprise so you can't spoil it. So you HAVE to raise both eyebrows ( a Must ). And combine it with the wide smile and wide eyes. ( that's the obvious )

Smiling without your eyes: OK this is the worst smile one could ever have you do not want to smile like this and you do not want people to smile like this at you. There is no sincerity in it. (OK try covering tyra's mouth with your fingers and see the eyes and pretend the mouth is not smiling... You see? its like a dead face right? RIGHT?) And moreover, if you don't see like the muscles around the eyes and the cheeks move, it straight away means that he or she is not smiling sincerely.

Smiling with your eyes: OK this smiles sells products like duh. The one thing you must do it to squint your eyes and oen it slightly. You have to imagine that you are smiling so strong but the mouth to bring it back to normal but keep that eyes squinting. The back muscles of your eyes has to be pulled back, ( use your eyebrows to pull it back cause its connested to it ).

Flirting smile: Ok this smile is like when you see someone you like. But nobody in singapore would do this but if its like a fun shot you can do it. You tilt your body to the object or the subject and tilt your head down cause it naturally makes your eyes sharp and kinda smiling. and do a smirk.

The Commercial smile: This is the smile that you want people to relate to. So you smile with your eyes and your mouth but not too much teeth cause it tends to get fake.

Catalog smile: This is like the high fashion smile you see in vogue magazine.

Why being gay is the most important part about themselves?

1:59 AM | 0 comments

This is kinda a serious post.

Basically I think that this comes from us having to fight for rights for the past 30 years. So the older generation who have been fighting for gay rights since the 70s 60s even have made them being gay such a big part of themselves to be able to fight for their rights. But now that these rights are starting to exist and become realised, they do not know what to do with themselves all that's known is "gay" and they simply keep on making "being gay" the most important part of themselves because they do not know what else to do. In terms of the younger generation, gays that have been coming out in the last let's say ten years, leading up to now, its such a big thing to come out. So, all of the friends know, blah blah blah, all these different groups suddenly know and they (gays) have an identity crisis. And you want to discover who you are and this new big gay-thing has just popped out in your life or has developed into something greater in your life and so you want to express that. After doing that for a long time, they suddenly realise " oh that's not all there is to me............... but what else is there?". SO they just keep on thinking that gay is the most important thing about themselves. Also since the prop 8 is like arising we have to like change our mindset on gay rights. Marches and all that jazz no longer can bring rights to us. Wr have to blend in with the society. We have to be normal people. Not just gays in a gay ghetto because that's all that the society sees in a bad way like AIDS or drug. They don't see gays that have integrated with the societies like doctors, engineers or STUDENTS.

DO's and Don'ts when you're around a gay guy

You DO have to watch what you are saying to us cause we are emotionally unstable. We have a strong mouth but we have a thin skin.
DO treat us as normal people but keep in mind that we are gay.
DON'T talk/ask anything about gender like whether we think this is hotter or not. Like whether one thinks that this guy is hot or not.
DON'T call us gays in public. We are fine with being gay, but the word do bring us fear especially those who just came out.
DON'T believe our expression. We can hide meanings in our expressions. A smile may not always be a smile. Different smile signifies different things ( I'll teach you about the different smiles on later posts)

10 reasons "Why gays are important?"

3:03 AM | 0 comments

Hey comrades,

Today on "WHY GAYS.....", I'm going to talk to you about why gays are important you the world. Well......

Firstly: By legalizing gay marriages, we can save the economy. The average American wedding costs like around $20,000. The number of gay couples living together without the benefit of marriage is estimated at 3 million. Using those numbers, same-sex marriages could pump an estimated additional $60 billion in revenue into our deteriorating economy. Oh and that doesn't even include money from the pre-wedding parties, honeymoons, or wedding registries.

Secondly: we can slow down birth rates. Well neither one of us can reproduce right? Duh!!!

Thirdly: We are the only species in males that are allowed to say " fabulous!!!" and " honey" to everyone... even animals. Ane we can call girls " girlfriend" even if they're not your girlfriend.

Fourthly: We have good expression. We can smile to let someone know we can't stand them.

Fifthly: We can teach you people how to be FIERCE!!!

Sixth: We can understand both sides of the gender. ( So you can tell me anything people )

seventh: We are the only group of people not touched by war. So we are precious, "pure".

Eighth: We make life for girls more colourful and fun. As we always have a smile on our faces.

Ninth: Girls can easiliy ask whether their ass is too big or what they are wearing is disgusting or not.

Tenth: We have the greatest gossips you need...From both sexes...

OK you might disagree to this...but this is my blog and i can say what i want to say...bye

Girls girls girls

4:25 AM | 0 comments

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Hey comrades,

I am like a complementary blog of aisyah's ( sec school bestie ). Hers was all about boys, but now I'm doing the opposite. Girls of course! Duh! The complexity of women that a gay boy encounter is something you need to find out. Hey, how many times would you face a gay boy who became your friend? But be warned, this post might get very- very- bitter- one- sided- drama- king's view about the species we all know as women.

Maybe because I have nothing to do but literature homework, but I do feel you guys need to know what gay people think of you people ( females ). You ask any guy about girls, they would not know much, but ask us gays, " My gays, what do YOU think about girls? " We would probably know more as we hang out with them. We hear their complains and their sorrowness. We feed of these pain and understand such sub-species. Anyways, our answers would be that as much as we hate the constant nagging and self-centered matters ( Sorry bitches but it's true ), we still love the chats and the talking. Ask a gay to hang out with a group of guys? We'd hardly blend it. Its all too quiet and boring. ( Trust me, I walked with this guy back to school and we did not talk at all. Very strange environment ). Like they say, " Every girl has a gay friend", I might have fulfilled their wishes like Aisyah's.

I do enjoy my malay possies during secondary school. And girls are not all bad. Just too many colours to handle. You know what I mean. Too many personalities to relate to them and create that perfect conversation.

The one thing that ticks me off about girls is that they, this is from the heart, nothing!!!

maybe because i'm gay I said that, Oh ya, it does make a difference. Well, so that's final, gays can't live without their girl-mate ( and that's all y'all girlfriends, Hola!!! )

Emo tuesday

1:06 AM | 0 comments

Hey comrades, although non-existence,

I think i went a bit over the celebratory mood yesterday because of my geography marks. Well my teacher anyhow guessed and it turned out i did not get the highest for my physical geog..Amelia (bestie) got it... oh well...I still got an A...But personally I'm someone who works hard for position, you can hate me for this but i easily get jealous but since i already got an A I shouldn't ask for more..( learnt that lesson for sure)

Oh I failed my melayu. Saya tentu berasa sedih kerana saya fikir bahawa kertas ini lebih mudah untuk dibuat and walaupun saya gagal saya masih dapat 'S' (sub-pass). Saya selalu mendapat 'U' jadi sikap positif ini, saya harus ada.

Okie out from the malay into the english( that was a relief) . I'm HATING me new lit teacher a.k.a Cruella de vil. You guys know about the contact tracing right? she wants a mugshot of all of us...I was happy about it, strangely. Well what do you expect? I hadn't taken a picture for like 3

months!!!! you know how deteriorating it is for me? Better put foundation around my eyes...haha

Enough about that, I really am praying for the rest of my papers....hoping for more As...

Where are my gays?

5:17 AM | 0 comments

OH how i miss them so.....

OK my non-existant friends
Today is a great day for me firstly GP teacher had a fever ( WENT HOME DUH!!!) So we had 2 hours of free time. OF course we had to study... AND oh i forgot, I got an A for my geography block exams, and i topped the whole cohort...call be boastful but, I DID IT!!!...thank god...

Oh and we had a photoshoot class one and i did this pose on 3 chairs and like they were all "woah!!!" and i was like..."you ain't see noting yet"...well I'm gay so what i can do whatever i want...of speaking of gay I hate lydia ( my classmate ) i think she is homophobia...3 times she discriminated me of my gayness

1) When we first met during group work I said " oh my god!" and she jerked back on her chair and said " eww gay" that words hurt me so bad..i hated her from there.

2) During lit lessons we had to write a prose about anything that includes the techniques we learnt...then when i took it out she read it and she went " oh I thought you were going to write some gay story"...and i just laughed with the word "bitch" erupting off my head.

3) this one was recently when i got my hair cut short...i went into class she said " eh the gay haircut again" loudly...i was so pissed but i kept my cool...but i have to stop doing this..i should be proud to be gay and they should be regretting not to be one...urgh one more time from her i'm gonna confront her...

Long time no post!

2:05 AM | 0 comments

Might be the first member of my family whom I would open out to

So Hi my blogger people out there,

I know its been such a long time since I've blog although not many people really read my blog so I can really open out in my blog. I do have a journal the traditional diary(book) my pain is all there. I hope that one day many years from now people would have a chance to read about the young and confused adolescent.

Oh, if you guys don't know, me and nazri broke up. Not really the breaking up where we hate each other but we feel that our relationship is more of casual friends that a real gay relationship. so we decided to go on our separate ways.

So back to the main topic of this post, I am writing about the homosexuality law in Singapore. I've been spending a lot of time discovering more of myself and of course studying( you can never get this geek away from his books). Anyway, regarding to Singapore's gay community I feel that although people are "OK" with it, we can still feel the repulsion of them. Meaning that there is no acceptance but there is tolerance. You see, we can actually sense that, or lack thereof. The reason for this is that sometimes Singapore's administration manages to give an impression of somewhat homophobic. Its like what PM Lee Hsien loong said at like around 2005, after his short speech at a luncheon organised by the Foreign Correspondents Association, he said that he is aware that homosexuality is genetic and it is not a choice. I was fully on his page right there until... when he said that he does not support Gay Pride like those in San Fransisco, the PFLAG and all that jazz. Although I find it true especially in S'pore. SO i shall not comment further on that part of the topic.

Another thing is that (EX i think) Prime Minister Goh Chok Tong's comments in the 7 July 2003 issue of Time (Asia) magazine about homosexuals that "...some people are born that way. We are born this way and they are born that way, but they are like you and me." He also stated that gays would now be allowed to serve in 'sensitive positions' in the Civil Service and that homosexual acts are still prohibited. Well truthfully I am blessed to be a Gay boy in Singapore cause I realise that there are other countries that have more animosity against the gay people. Maybe its because of the dreadful laws that the British left behind after singapore gain independence ( I did my research). It's about time Singapore grew up, I think, and realised that gay people are here to stay given the acceptance and not the tolerance. Just treat us with respect like we treat everybody else and the world will be a better place, I think.